Echotale - Thought So (G!sansxFrisk)

Starting Friendship

*Frisk's POV*

After puking, I had to fight with myself on the decision of going back to G.

Asriel's words still seemed fresh in my mind, and they made me shiver with a slight sickness and a terrible feeling.

In all truth, I didn't know what to believe or trust.

Everything I had seen and heard, everything that had happened, caused me to believe that the Prince was right about G being fake.

But it also caused me to believe that G is right, that G is selfish but he is also telling the truth about everything.

Either one seemed like a wrong choice to trust, and I thought about the people G had killed out of anger, and I thought about Grillby and Bella's eyes as they filled with the terrifying emotion of death.

The thought of Bella trembled me as I began walking, unaware that I was making my way back to G.

If she was with me now, she would help me work through this, and I knew for a fact that she would let me talk to her about it.

Without someone to talk to, life felt straight forward, it felt like a trap that was closed around me, making me struggle for just a small taste of freedom.

A taste of someone to talk too.

G I knew I could never trust.

Even before what Asriel had said, I knew I could never trust his words, or his ideas.

All I had trusted was his plan to find Dr. Alphys and get us out of this mess that was tearing me apart.

With my mind overwhelming itself, and my body shivering with a pale sickness, I continued to walk and stare at the ground.

The world around me seemed so peaceful and welcoming, yet I felt trapped and sick like someone had kept me from the sun for way too long.

I tried to compare myself to the monsters that were trapped here, and I realized I couldn't imagine what it must be like to never see the sun.

What would it be like to finally see the sun after all those years?

What was it like for G and Asriel, once they finally met the surface and felt the sun on their bodies?

The thought just added to the pile of sickness when G and Asriel were mentioned, and I shut my eyes tightly as if everything would disappear by a small wish in my heart.

Even if Asriel was right about G, what could G be hiding from me that I didn't know about?

And if Asriel was lying, how would I know? 

Would I really take that risk?

The risk of trusting G, of following G, why had I gone with him in the first place?

'Fear,' I thought, 'I followed him because I was afraid of what Asriel would do to me. Now I'm following him to make sure what he's doing is right.'

Yet when I thought about G and everything he had done, I truly wondered if what he was doing was for justice, or his selfish reasons.

Was there a difference for trying to make justice out of selfish reasons?

The difference, is the fact that justice is for the greater good of all, and selfish reasons are for the greater good of you.

G seemed to be doing the impossible, and he was accomplishing both with my help.

I was supporting him, and he was doing it for both the wrong and right reasons.

The conflict in my mind seemed to grow with each new conclusion.