Training Wheels {Zerkaa}

{Chapter Nineteen}

//Ellie's Pov\\

"I'm worried about Josh." Vik states as he grabs the milk from the fridge.

"Me too." I agree.

"Last night, i was editing and I heard him throw something and it smashed against his wall. I tried to go in but he told me to leave." Vik adds.

"Ells, I think you should go check on him, just to make sure he's okay. He'll only speak to you." Simon suggests.

"I will." I say.

I exit the kitchen and prepare my words. Why am I so nervous? Why do I have to plan out my words that I'll never get out without stuttering?

I wipe my sweaty palms and clear my throat before opening the door. The wooden door creaks as I widely expose the dark room. I walk in slowly and open the curtain to let some light in. Josh's body curls as he sobs. I glance at the shattered glass spread across the carpet.

I pick the glass up and carefully place it in the metal bin. I scrub Josh's floor to get of the smell of pure whiskey. Once I clean the mess, I sit on the bed and rub Josh's back.

"Josh." I call. He ignores me.

I place my hand on his head and run my fingers through his soft brunette hair. I frown as I see the state of him. What have I done? I wipe away his tears.

"What have you done to yourself?" I speak softly.

Josh turns his body so he's facing me. He stares at me with a frown as I carry on comforting him.

"I'm sorry." Josh apologises. His voice sounds much more deeper and cracks, like his been crying nonstop.

"For what?" I question, but I already know the answer.

"For kissing you, an-and covering you with those bites." He answers.

Silence passes through the room. Me and Josh exchange looks and sit in the same position. I fall in bed with him. I wipe away his tears and hug him tightly, to try remove all doubts. Josh smiles, in what seems like a long time, as I softly kiss his cheek. I hug him like he's my very own.

I've always died for this moment. I've always dreamed of being close to Josh, hugging and kissing him, laying on the bed and enjoying each other's company.

But now, I don't want it. I just want Josh to be safe in my arms. I want to make sure he never gets hurt. But he doesn't want me, he just wants to be friends. It's a shame, because I still really fucking like him, a lot.

"I should of stopped it, Josh. It's partly my fault. You shouldn't hide here under the blankets and cry. I hate seeing you like this." I say, interrupting the peaceful moment we were sharing.

Josh looks at me with a faint smile. He places his hand on my cheek.

"I'm glad you didn't stop anything." Josh smiles. "I'm glad you're here, looking after me."

"Josh.." I begin, but Josh ignores my call.

"I've always liked you too, Ellie. Back when we were younger, I just thought it'd be best if we'd stay friends. I hated the thought of losing our friendship." Josh continues.

"You have?" I asks.

"Of course. And now Freya's out the way, do you want to be my girlfriend?" Josh smiles.

My eyes widen and my jaw drops.

"Really?" I gasp in disbelief.

"Really." Josh chuckles.

"Yes! I'd love to be your girlfriend!" I exclaim. I smash my lips against his in happiness, sitting on his lap and smiling like crazy.

I've been waiting for this moment for twelve years..