Training Wheels {Zerkaa}

{Chapter Thirty Three}

//Josh's pov\\

I sit down on the edge of the bridge that me and Ellie used to sit at when we were younger. We'd throw stones. I'd brag on about Freya. Ellie would tell me gossip. We'd have deep dark conversations. It was amazing.

Me and Ellie are happy.

I just didn't see why she ran out. I wanted to speak to her. Vik didn't mean it. He's under a lot of stress. And what she said wasn't fair on herself. She's not a fuck up. She just tries to help at the wrong time. She doesn't do anything wrong.

When me and Freya were going out, I could see she didn't like it. I saw deep down she was upset about it. I can read her like a book. She tries hard not to show her emotions, that's what I love about her. I did love her back. I was debating with myself if it was right. But I started to like Freya. I started to love Freya. That was the mistake.

I stare down in the water.

I feel something bad has happened. I stare deeper into the water. I see the one person I wish I didn't have to see drowning. Ellie.

I start to panic. I hold my breath before jumping in. I grab Ellie and yank her out the river.

"Ellie!" I scream, giving her cpr.

I check her pulse. She's not breathing. I bring her mouth to mine, breathing hard into her mouth. I try to suck any water from out of her mouth.

"Call an ambulance!" I shout to the woman that approaches me. She nods and calls the ambulance.

I cry and brush the hair out of her mouth.

"Ellie, wake up! Please! I need you!" I beg, holding tightly onto her hand and cry into it.

I glance at her features, taking it in. Her mascara running down her face. Her hair dangling down as her head rests in my arm. Her mouth wide open from where I breathed in it. Her eyes shut.

I grab my phone out of my pocket and dial Simons number.

"Come on, pickup!" I murmur as I hear the phone ringing.

"Hello?" Simon calls through the phone.

"Si-Sim-simon." I stutter in shock.

"Josh?" Simon questions, "what's the matter?"

"I-it's Ellie." I cry.

"What's happened? What's the matter with Ellie?" Simon asks nervously, and hurriedly.

"Just come down to the hospital. I-I'll explain there." I say before hanging up.

"Jo-josh?" I hear Ellie choke out.

"Shh, it's going to be okay. The ambulance are on their way." I hush, kissing Ellie's forehead.

"I-I'm so-sorry Joshy. I fucked up again." Ellie chokes, coughing out water.

"No, no you didn't. Don't tell yourself that." I beg.

"I'm sorry for disappointing you." She apologises, "I'm sorry for making you cry again. I've been so selfish."

"No, you hav-" I begin but she interrupts.