Falling again (sequel to NGLS)

35.) Crazy

Nine months later...

Bria's POV-
The past months have been hard. Work has been nothing but stress, Theo keeps me up most nights and to top it all off I found out who the father of Theo is. I haven't told him. I guess I just never found the right time to, and I guess I didn't want to. I was scared.

Scared of losing Theo. Scared that the father was no longer a part of my life. I didn't want my son to be taken away from me. I don't think any parent would want their child to be taken away from them and given to the other parent.

I always told myself that I would make sure my children would grow up with a mom and a dad and so far I'm failing at that. I'm already disappointing my child, and future children.

It was two thirty in the morning and I was trying to tame Theo. "Hush little baby don't say a word..." I sang every lullaby known to man but they didn't do me any justice. Theo cried and cried despite my countless efforts to get him to stop. Everything I did just seemed to agitate Theo more and more.

It was times like these I'd wish I didn't have to do this alone. Being a parent I mean. It would have been nice to have someone else to help me through this. All the late nights I'm up because Theo is constantly crying. It also would have been nice to have someone help pay all of Theo's medical bills on top of the bills for the apartment, but there was no one to blame but myself.

I should've told the dad of Theo as soon as I heard but I didn't, and I still haven't. I probably will never tell them or I'll lie to them when they ask.

If I didn't have Nash and Cam I would be doomed. They've been such a big help and they even made their own babysitting business. I'm kind of surprised that strangers would allow their children to be under the care of those two. Last week they lost Theo.

I was on my lunch break for work when Cam called me. "Is everything ok?" I asked frantically. Cam took awhile to answer and I felt my heart stop. "Bria, we kind of lost Theo." I could hear Nash yelling in the background that it wasn't his fault. "How the hell did you lost Theo!" I was livid. "We were playing and I had to answer a call and then he disappeared." I could tell Cam was nervous. "Well did you find him?" Again Cam didn't respond quick enough to ensure everything was ok. "About that, he's in the house we just don't know where." I hung up the phone and told my boss I had to leave on an emergency. Without letting my boss give me an answer I ran to my car and sped to the house. When I arrived I tore everything up looking for Theo. "I found him!" Nash yelled. I ran to where Nash was. "He's sleeping in your old room." Nash cooed. It took me awhile to trust them again, three hours to be exact.

I had work in a few hours and I haven't slept in the past three days. I was cranky and beyond tired. Theo came first though, and if he wanted to cry every night for no reason than so be it.

As soon as Theo stopped crying the house phone rings. I sprinted to the kitchen and quickly picked up the phone. "Hello?" I checked to make sure Theo was still sleeping. Even though Theo's cries could wake up the dead.

"Hey Bria." I had no clue who it was so I had to look at the phone screen. "Hey." I didn't recognize the number but that isn't saying much. "I'm going to be picking Theo up soon so I thought you should know." I was definitely taken back by this statement.

"First of all, I don't even know who you are. Secondly the answer is no." The voice laughed. "Bria, you know who I am." I shook my head. "Clearly I don't." My crankiness was coming out and it wasn't going to be pretty.