Metanoia

Smile

"Smile little girl"
You say
"Smile, and show the whole world
What I want you to be
You know you mean a lot to me"

You chased me around
You wouldn't take no for an answer
You said we could compromise
I wouldn't have to do anything more
I was a good girl
You said
If I would only do a little more

You said you were helping me
I believed you like a fool
Everything seemed orderly
Until you made me- oh no, what did I do?

Maybe it's my fault though
I shouldn't have answered your replies
I should've blocked you sooner
But I was blinded by your lies

I was so naïve
And this wasn't even the first time it happened to me
I should've known better
After you told me to smile
I should've known better

You knew my age though
I told you I wasn't comfortable
But you told me it was fine
That I should go on
You said you were only there to help me
And that this wasn't risky
You said you'd protect me
Why am I so naïve?

It was only online
It doesn't matter anyway
It's not like it happened in real life
But God, what am I supposed to say

"Smile little girl"
You said
"Smile, and show the whole world
What I want you to be
You know you mean a lot to me"
You said
But I have a feeling
I would've been better off dead
Instead of with you messing with my head