Metanoia

Blame

Why does everything feel so numb?
You put the blame on me but it wasn't enough
So here I am looking out the window pane Sitting on the ledge
Trying to sound sane
But the weight is crushing me
And I can't breathe
But just put your blame all on me
And I know that you're not wrong
It happened for just too long
And the weight of living is pulling me under
I'm drowning and breathing in water
But it's fine
I'll be alright
So why does everything feel so numb?
You put the blame on me but it wasn't enough
And oh,
It's never enough
Now I'm suffocating
And people are laughing
Don't they see me
And see what's happening
But I guess no one cares
Or I'm just not there
The chains are pulling me down and I
I'm doing my best but I
Don't know if I can survive
But I try
The blame you're putting on me is killing me slowly
I'd rather restart
Or just be lonely
And everything feels so numb
The blame you put on me wasn't enough
And now
I just feel done