To Love a Son

Fourteen.

Happy's POV

I had a beer in one hand and a joint in the other as I watched my brothers flirt with the sweet butts, getting ready to bury their dicks in them. Was I jealous that they got to fuck whoever they wanted? No, not at all. I was about to be fourty-six years old and I had spent my entire life in between random bitches' legs, I was well over that shit. Carmen was there every night and that was something I never thought I would have and it was worth more than random one night stands.

I didn't see sex the same way she did though, to me it was just a way to get what I needed and it meant absolutely nothing with anyone but her. She saw it the complete opposite, to her it was special and it meant so much more. I knew I couldn't fuck any of these bitches because Carmen would lose her shit, I didn't agree with it but I chose to do as she asked because she deserved it.

If I had been put in this situation ten years ago, I would have told Carmen to get lost, but I'm not thirty-five anymore. Part of me was glad that I finally had the chance to have a woman to come home to but the other part of me still second guessed absolutely everything. I didn't understand how Carmen found so much good in me or why she chose me, I wasn't good enough for her and I wasn't good for her. I was a killer. One day she would want a family, I already gave her the house and everyone knew that was supposed to come next. Could I really play house? I wanted to, damn did I want it, but I wasn't sure I could be what she needed.

I finished off my beer before waving over the blonde sweet butt.

"What can I get you, handsome?" She was dressed in a tight short skirt and a crop top with her fake boobs pushed up to be more than revealing. If I didn't have Carmen waiting for me in Charming, I would have taken that blonde bitch right there.

"Bring me the whiskey." I told her and I received a flirtatious look before she walked away to do as she was told. The bitch thought she was going to get something out of this but she was wrong. She came back, overly swaying her hips and I noticed that her boobs were pushed up even more. She handed me the bottle and sat a shot glass on the table, I pushed it to the side and took to the top off the bottle before taking a few swigs of it.

The bitch planted herself on my lap and my right hand find itself on her waist out of habit. I had been with Carmen for almost five months but at her side for about six, old habits die hard. I leaned back in the chair I was in while she ran her hands over my chest and stomach, getting dangerously low.

"Don't go there." I told her simply and moved her hand away from my crotch. I continued to drink the bottle in my hand as the night went on and the blonde was relentless. She stayed in my lap or at my side and the drunker I got the better she looked and the less my conscience was telling me what to do.

By the time the bottle was gone she let her hand drift south again and this time I gave in. I stood to my feet and led her back to a dorm room. I knew that it was wrong but at that moment I wasn't thinking about Carmen, I was thinking about getting my dick sucked.

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Juice's POV

The brunette was hanging on my arm, trying to get my full attention on her but I couldn't focus. My mind was on Carmen and the baby that she was carrying inside her, it was half her and half Hap and at the moment Hap had a blonde planted in his lap. The bitch had been there for a while and the longer she sat there the more pissed off I got.

Carmen had made me promise not to say anything to anyone about her being pregnant but didn't he deserve to know? Especially before he made some stupid mistake like fucking some sweet butt in Tacoma? I kept my shit together while the crow eater at my side placed her lips on my neck, she did a good job of distracting me until I saw Hap stand to his feet and lead the blonde down the hall. I pushed the brunette away from me and found Jax. He was sitting with Chibs and they looked like they were talking about something serious but I didn't care.

"Jax..." I interrupted them, they look at me, confused and slightly amused.

"What is it Juice?"

"Don't Carmen and Hap and a no road clause rule?"

"Yeah, they do, why?"

"Because man, I know it ain't any of my business but Hap just went to the back with some blonde and I normally wouldn't say anything but this morning Carmen found out she was pregnant and I just think that if Hap knew then..." I was rambling and everything came out like word vomit before I even knew what I was saying.

Jax jumped to his feet, he looked confused and pissed off. "Did you just say Carmen was pregnant?"

"Yeah man, she took a test this morning."

Jax hurried away from me but I followed him down the hall. I was just as pissed, if not more than he was. Jax pushed open the doors until one of them revealed Happy leaning against the wall and the blonde on her knees with his dick in her mouth. When the door opened, she pulled away quickly out of surprise.

"Get out bitch!" Jax yelled at her, she hesitated to move and looked to Happy in question. He had already pulled his pants up and glared down at the woman.

"Get out." His voice was so cold, I wasn't sure if he had realized what he was doing or if he was just so drunk that he didn't care still. Either way, the blonde hurried out the door and past us, Jax walked further into the room and Chibs stayed by me.

"What the fuck are you thinking Happy? You have a no road clause deal with my sister, my sister! Not only that but she is pregnant!" Hap's eyes went wide in shock, he looked so confused that I felt awful about not telling him sooner. "Yeah asshole! Your pregnant girlfriend is at home while you're getting your dick sucked." Jax was pissed, I knew that if Carmen and Hap hadn't set up that deal then Jax wouldn't have given two shits about what Happy did on the road.

"Pregnant?" Happy asked and that's when I spoke up.

"When I went to the store with her this morning, she realized that she was late so she grabbed a test and it was positive. She said she was going to tell you when we got back." I explained but it didn't look like Happy cared, he wasn't very easy to read so I wasn't sure if he was pissed or hurt.

"Get out." Was his only response. Jax gave me a nod and I did what I was told. Happy still looked confused when we left but I didn't see him again that. I hoped I did the right thing, I was just trying to protect my best friend.