be careful who you trust
it could turn around to hurt you
this is a double work. both about trust, just in different ways.
A/N: strong language.
• • •
did i do something wrong?
sometimes i see my best friends turn their phones away
or talk to other friends about issues
mention something right in front of me
"oh you don't know nevermind"
but i've told you everything..
i don't understand...
have i done something to make you lose my trust?
that's okay
i'll stop telling you things
i'll stop opening up to you
i guess you didn't really want to be my friend
go back to those other girls
that senior you're obsessed with
that group of friends that drink and smoke
some girl you'll end up ditching in three months from now
it's fine
i guess i can only really trust myself
i guess
• • •
you've broken my trust
now i can't trust anyone else
he can say all he wants that he won't smoke
won't do this
won't do that
and i want to believe him
i want to believe he will respect my morals
but you didn't, so my mind automatically says
will he?
when i think about his friends
they do that
and it's not that i'm against smoking
it's just
traumatic
all i can think of is you
you sick little boy
why didn't you take a fucking hint
you bastard
you blamed cheating on me on smoking
it always goes back to that
and now you smoke every day
you think you're so fucking cool
i fucking hate you
and it kills me
because
even if it helps him
i'm too goddamn selfish to say
"it's okay, i don't mind"
because i do mind
i can't go through this anymore
i can't trust anyone anymore
• • •
did i do something wrong... you've broken my trust... will he?
