i've always been jealous
every girl that talks to him
i even told him
"you talking to ***** makes me really jealous"
he was never mine
just for a week perhaps
"we talked on the phone a few nights"
"i'm helping him"
"you're the best friend anyone could ask for"
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
please stop
i feel so sick
it should be me on the phone with him
not you
it should be me helping him
not you
i was his best friend
he was my best friend
i thought we were still friends...
he's still my everything.
why
why would you talk to each other
if you both knew
how i felt
why do you always talk to people about advice
why is it you
i can't help anyone out
but i guess
i never was that big of a snake.
i don't understand
i want to scream at him
please don't talk to her
please come back
don't fall for it
i know she has a boyfriend
but who knows what he'll start thinking
please let it still be me in your heart
oh god please
i'm not even religious but
god, jesus, whoever
please let me still be that girl in his heart
the one that he loved so much
the one that was his world
because
i still love him so much
he is my whole world
i don't want to be hung up on him anymore
if i'm just here
here to watch him slowly move away from me
without closure
i need closure. or him. or something.
because, girl, you have NO idea how much
i want this
i would cut my hair short just to hear his voice
laughing and happy
i would throw away my favorite pair of shoes
just to hug him
and it's just easy for you
you can just
talk
i don't know what he thinks of me now
i don't know what he wants now
but i'll bet you do.
i'm so jealous.
