A/N: ive been trying to write more because it's very therapeutic, social media is very triggering to me and though not many read this i feel such relief having a weight off of my shoulders. hope u enjoy.
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i have wanted
to be numb to everything
to all of my emotions
and finally, i am
i am numb.
i don't care much
about the simple things
the things people tell me
the things they don't
i couldn't care less.
and i'm so happy
i am so
so
happy
that i don't care
i don't care if you mistake this
for hostility
for a bad day
because it doesn't matter anymore
because it's not your problem.
when someone asks
"hey, how are you"
do they really mean it?
it's usually just
a formality
and i say
the hell with formality
if you don't care,
then don't care.
don't ask.
because i am fine
i am happy and
i am not upset and
i do not
need your pity.
i lose it every now and then
when it breaks
and my world feels like
it's falling
but it's okay
because i know
that soon after
i'll be numb
and i won't feel it
anymore.
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