Unravel Me - Attack on Titan/Tokyo Ghoul Crossover

Chapter 14- Fell On Black Days

Akira's POV

It was dreadful absolutely bloody dreadful! Imagine being in a group surrounded with people who - A) Didn't Trust You B) Feared You C) Hated You or D) All of the Above. Don't get me wrong fear was a rather good thing. It was pretty great at that, but being looked at like a ticking fucking time bomb is annoying. It became more evident to me when we had to spend a day cleaning. 

Everyone had this look of dead silence when it came to me. It was like I was that one guys going around killing virgins for their scent. ( Which I did do, but that's aside from the point.) My movements became somewhat laxed as I felt a small tapping on my shoulder. As I went to turn around I had to look downwards in order to stare him eye to eye. I felt generous today, so I didn't want him to struggle with looking up at me. " What do you want little boy? " My voice was harsh and laced with cynicism  as evidently was not in the mood today. " I have given you an assignment , and I expect it to be done. "  " Ah yes Mein Führer! Sieg Heil! Sieg Heil! Deine kämpfe sind meine kämpfe! HEIL MEIN FUHRER "  He growled at me. I assumed he didn't exactly enjoy me mocking him. I assume he didn't know what or whom I was referring. However, all I knew is that he was n't happy to say the least. Whether it was because of the fact that he didn't know what was saying or because of the fact that my Japanese accent made it sound so harsh I wouldn't know.

" Listen brat I don't know what the hell that little display of yours was about, but I don't fucking like it. I am your captain. You are MY SUBORDINATE! It's not the other way around. Understood? " He was getting under my skin. I believe that he could see it poking through.  However, I merely scoffed then looked down at him. " Listen I don't like to impose anything or sound like I am trying to look down on everyone, but I have already cleaned  several floors. If it bothers you so much you can ask your other subordinates to clean this up." 

I walked out  of our HQ  , and made my way towards the deep woods. It was serene, odd yet beautiful. In Japan I never even really visited The Suicide Forest in Aokigahara. But, while there I always felt human. Yet still, I felt morbid and unclean. I was unsanitary. As I gazed up at the skies I realized the birds and the trees that clouded my vision. I laughed a bit. I felt high and dumb or maybe just happy. I felt my lips begin to twitch upwards. It felt painful being so unaccustomed to such a movement. It was strange , and unnatural. It felt human. I suddenly cried out in fear or in terror. " GO AWAY! GET AWAY! GET AWAY! GET A-WAY! " It hurt me. After years of such suppressed emotions it all began to flow out of me. My father and mother leaving me, my sister dying on me, the murder after murders that I have committed over the years, and finally the final nail in the coffin. I broke down I broke for a good few hours I don't fully remember what happened. 

When I began to look around it was like I was back home, but it wasn't right. Everything looked normal, and everyone seemed like they were happy. Rize was there too. "Aki, come down here! You're missing all the fun!" I was shocked. What else was I suppose  to act like in all honesty. I haven't seen her in almost a year. She was dead to me. Not just physically, but meta as well. 

"What are you doing here?" I uttered this out as quickly as possible. For once in my life my brain wasn't functioning like it usually would. The only thing that was responding was my heart now. It was in between the blurred lines of instinct, thought, and feelings, all of which I hated immensely. She gazed up at me with a look of shock etched onto her facial features. It was  simultaneously surprising and revolting to me. "What do you mean Aki? We're sisters! Of course I'm here!" 

It all felt like a sick and twisted sit-com. It was like I was taking part in a morphed version of Full House in all honesty. My thoughts were suddenly interrupted when Rize yelled. "Mom, Aki's acting weird again!" The woman who features looked scarily close to that of my mothers walked in with water bottles in one hand and plates of freshly butchered flesh in another. "She must have been out late again dear. Now stop patronizing your sister and tell her to get over here."

This was all wrong. I was contemplating whether or not I took psychedelics to create such a trippy dream like state. But, I was once again shook from my frame of thought when I saw my father opening the door with a briefcase in one hand and his jacket in another. "Lucy, I'm home!" "Well welcome home honey, how was the night-shift at your job dear?" While they were busy bantering with each other I decided to make a mad dash towards the door, but every time I got closer the exit seemed to move further and further away. 

I tripped over myself which resulted in my 'family' beginning to look at me with expressions of discomfort and confusion evident on their faces. "Honey, why are you trying to leave us? You just woke up?" Rize then piped up exclaiming, "You just came back and now you're trying to leave us again! Why?" I began to shake, whether it be from fear or my unease I couldn't be too sure. I then gathered the composure to stand up and speak the truth to them. "No, I didn't abandon you. You abandoned me. Now it's just fair game. Goodbye. For good."

As soon as I exited the small condominium I was awake. I felt under my eyes, and felt a bit of dampness where the bags under my eyes usually were. I decided that it's best that I make my way back to the hide-out so the wouldn't worry about me. But that last thing I thought of before I left were the family I left behind, and if what I had now could be considered such.

"Victims. Victims of a transitional period of morality. That is what we both certainly are." - Osamu Dazai

(A/N) So I decided to keep on continuing with this story. Thanks for all the support, and thank you for dealing with my apathy. Sorry.

Sincerely,

Alexandra_Delarge