Dear Angie.

Chapter Six

30th May 2007

Dear Angie,

I know where the quote came from.

In my first dream, I was reading a book. A very familiar book, but I could not tell the title. I was far too busy attempting to sort through Mother's murder in my dreams that I appear to have forgotten one of the most important details in my dream. The book. 'There comes and end to all things, the most capacious measure is filled at last; and the brief condescion to evil finally destroyed my soul'.

I'm so stupid. It was a quote from the author Robert Louis. Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde. We had to take on the book in Literature class. It was only this morning, when I was going through my book collection that I realized this. Is this a message? Am I displaying some sort of split personality disorder? Am I that extreme?

My father's side of the family displayed several mental abnormailities. Is it possible that it was passed down unto me?

It's a possibility. A very, very big possibility.

Love,

Lia

31st May 2007

Dear Angie,

I remember. It's still hazy, unclear, like a velin has transcended upon my memories, but at least part of it is there.

And so was Marius.

I remember Fiona crying. Johann was lying in the corner. There was blood seeping out of his head, unto the floor, but his pulse was still there. Weak, yes, but there.

I was the one who told her I would take care of it. She followed me to the park, like some weak, trailing lamb. I was the one who hacked off his head using a shovel. It was all so calm. So tranquil. It had a serenity that I simply could not explain, and it was the most peaceful state that I have ever entered since I came to New York.

I disfigured his face. I burnt his fingertips. I made sure to bury them where no one would find them.

The problem is, Angelissa, that I saw a dark figure watching me from a distance as I finished off what Fiona started. And he had the same honey brown eyes as Marius.

It's him. It has to be him.

What kind of game is he playing? What does he want? I've committed a dangerous crime. I've underestimated Matari. How did this happen?

I mustn't let him get the upper hand. But I can't stop all contact, Angie! The science fair. Our discovery could potentially change the fate of mankind.

I have to stay strong.

Love,

Lia

5th June 2007

Dear Angie,

Our research has proved inconclusive. I've racked my brains, but both Marius and I know that we're missing something. It's frustrating. I want to pull out my hair by it's roots. I want to scratch out someone's eyes. We're so close! It was right at our fingertips.

I do not know which is worse: being at the very edge of something so big that it could destroy everything we believe in, or having your heart beat increase when your partner so much as glances at you, although you know that he knows more than he lets on. Like your hiding a dead body in a park, for example.

Things have been getting really... awkward between us. Our conversations are limited by intellectual talks, where I usually give a simple nod of my head, or offer a simple critic with no further elaboration. I can see his frustration in his dark eyes and I can feel his eyes burning into my back sometimes. Even Lydia commented on the matter. 

I am in control. He will not manipulate me. 

Love, 

Lia

7th June 2007

Dear Angie, 

I am not sure of my eyes betray me, but I saw Claire. Claire Duval. Same cornflower blue eyes. Same ink black hair. Same luscious red lips. Same model like figure, curvy enough to attract male attention. And I saw her talking to Marius Matari. They didn't see me, I'm sure, but the familiarity they shared was enough to pierce with me with some kind of envy. I've been so stupid. 

They spoke loud enough for me to hear them from where I was sitting, which was directly behind them, under my table. (No use trying to explain how I got there)

They were talking about something called the Mars Agency. A new batch of 'diamonds' had come in. Something about the sales in 'Birds' going down. I'm not stupid, Ang. I know what they are talking about. And it thrills me. I have leverage! If Marius Matari thinks he can play some kind of game with me, he can think again. 

But it stings. Was Claire in this too? I will crush her. I will make her little world crumble. She will pay the price for playing a dangerous game.

Love, 

Lia