Complicated (urban)

Forever Missed

Keyanna POV

A week later

This week has been so stressful. I can't believe I was just on the phone with him but now My brother My friend,My Ace was gone.I can just imagine the look on my face when Xavier walked through that door.

*Flashback *

After I called X and told him what I heard at Aces house.I paced the floors in our livingroom crying and praying and worrying.

I did this for two hours hoping they were both okay. I sat on the couch and waited and waited until I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up that morning and they still weren't here I checked my cell phone nothing. house phone nothing. To say I was worried sick was an understatement.

I called Ace and Xavier's phones back to back to no avail. I didn't know what else to do so I sat on the couch and waited.

Around 5 pm. I heard a car pull up in the driveway I literally leaped off the couch and met Xavier at the front door.

"You had me worried - I looked behind him where's Ace" I asked looking at him he had blood everywhere face ,pants, shirt and his shoes.

"I don't wanna talk about it" he said barely above a whisper and walked past me.

"You don't wanna talk about it?Where is Ace ? Who's blood is that on your clothes?" I asked walking behind him but he didn't answer.

"Xavier" I yelled causing him to turn around

"What" he said sternly

"What happened and where is Ace" I asked getting tired of him beating around the bush .

He took in a deep breath.

"They fucking killed him and it's all my fucking fault if I woulda got there sooner I could've saved him I could've saved my brother but no I was too fucking late and he died in my fucking arms are you happy now". he said walking out the front door and slamming it shut.

I fell to my knees and cried.

*Present Day*

I sat at the mirror and cried I dreaded this day the day everything became real the day they lowered him six feet under.

When I see him in that casket I knew everything would become real and I knew in my heart I wouldn't be able to handle it.

I stood up wiping my tears away I was sick of crying I was sick of being sad I just wanted everything to go back to normal.

Ever since that night Xaviers barely ever comes home and when he is he completely ignores me. I try to comfort him so he knows hes not the only one hurting but he just pushes me away.

I pushed away all my thoughts as I prepared to get ready for this funeral.

Xavier POV

Empty if I had to describe my life in one word it would be Empty.

I can't believe I let this happened .All I had to do was get there a little sooner. I could've saved him I could've died in the process I could've tried a lil harder I could've.........

My mind was filled with what I could've done as I sat at the hotel room preparing to see my brother for the last time.

I could've went home but I didn't wanna be bothered. I couldn't deal with Keyanna being all in my damn face all fucking day.

All I care about is these fucking streets with Ace being gone I was 10 times harder on everybody. If you were even a dollar short you were dying friend or not.

I sat on the bed thinking about all the good times we had together and how he was gone too soon .

A little while later I got dressed and headed to the funeral.

Keyanna POV.

I had flatironed my hair straight and put on a knee length straight skirt a red blouse and a black blazer with my black red bottoms . Deciding to wear Aces favorite colors. I grabbed my purse and my keys and slowly drove to the funeral.

I arrived at the funeral and sat in the car for ten minutes mentally preparing myself for what I was about to see. I sighed and threw on my oversized black glasses to hide my tears and got out the car.

I apoarced the casket slowly before looking at him he looked so different with all the makeup and stuff but all in all in he looked nice in his red and black suit he looked so....... Peaceful.

I leaned in slowly and touched his cold check. I tried my hardest to hold in my tears as I realized this is the last time I will ever see him .

I kissed his check.

"I love you brother and I'm going to miss you just remember that" I said to him before walking away.

I toke my seat in the packed church and waited for the service to begin when a girl caught my attention.

She had on a red blouse and a black skirt similar to mine had long pretty hair and was beautiful to say the least but what caught my attention was the little boy in her hands he looked to be two or three and he looked so familiar I watched as she leaned down and kissed Aces lips....... The look on her face or the way she touched her baby boy and then touched Aces hand saying stuff I couldn't hear just made me wonder who she was. I watched as the lil boy leaned down and kissed Aces forehead before the lady walked away to find a seat.

The rest of the funeral was a blur I decided I wouldn't go to the repass or to the burial site I just wanted to go home lay in the bed and drown in my tears. I'm glad Toya came or I don't know how I would've even made it through the service.

After the funeral Toya decided she would skip the repass and burial and just followed me to the house.

We walked through the door both kicking off our shoes and sitting on the sofa in silence.

"This is crazy" Toya spoke up first

"I know" I replied consumed in my own thoughts.

She didn't respond she just sat there thinking and shaking her head.

"I just can't believe I was just on the phone with him...... Talking to him......Telling him I was .......".I paused realizing I haven't told anyone else besides Ace. "Telling him I was........ pregnant" I said quietly.As Toya gave me the I told you so face.

Xavier POV

That is by far the hardest things I have ever done. I watched as they lowered him into the ground I watched as his mother and grandmother fell to the ground crying there heart broken watching there baby boy go into the ground.

After they calmed down a little and the praying was over I walked over to Mama D (Ace grandmother ) and Ms.Davis (Ace mother).

"Hi Mama D" I said hugging her "I just wanted you to know that Ace told me to tell you he loves you and he wants you to pray for his forgiveness" I said to her as she cried into my chest . "I just wish I could talk to him one more time just one she said still crying but he's in God's hands now and he's already been forgiveness of all his sins when he entered the gates of heaven". She said matter-of-factly. I nodded my head before walking to Ms. Davis

"Hi Ms. Davis" I said hugging her as Well "Ace also wanted me to tell you he loves you and he's sorry for all the wrong he did in his life" . She cried harder "I told that boy I told him this life would be the death of him but in the end I blame myself I should've done better as a mother and as a women he may still be here" she said crying harder.

"Ms.Davis this is not at all your fault I know from experience you did everything in your power to protect us but we chose our path and sadly it took my brothers life away".She shook her head "You need to leave the game or this" she said waving her hands over the tombstones "is going to be your reality. "

I shook my head as I really thought about what she said.

*A/N . New story called Must be Nice (urban ).*