Fighting Back

What the hell am I doing?

I'll help, but I'll never stop hurting.

Tyler's P.O.V: 

It took me a while to build up the courage to just text her.

Why am I so nervous? Just text her. I can't I... UGH!

I practiced singing a bit just to try and get my mind off it but I just kept subconsciously singing love songs.

Damnit! You just met her, there is no way you like her. you're right. but still, I don't know.

I get lost in singing and realize I've been singing for 3 hours straight!

Shit! 

I should probably text her now I've been stalling for long enough.

I sit on the edge of my bed as I shake my leg nervously. Staring at my phone for a few minutes I hold my breath and send the text. A simple "hello" is all I send.

God, she's gonna think I'm boring probably. 

Now, I wait. and wait, and wait? it's been about 10 minutes and she still hasn't responded. 

Wait why do I care? 

I get lost in my phone and I get a text.

30  minutes later, ok. ha.

Brianna: Hey, sorry I was just cleaning and stuff. How are you?

Me: It's ok. So wyd?

She just said she was cleaning Idiot. Shut up!- damn it.

Brianna: Nothing I'm pretty bored actually. You?

I'm not bored talking to her. Just say you are so you don't look desperate. Oh, oh ask her about her friend the one that talked to us, I think it was like Josephine? I think so.

Me: Me too. Hey, I wanted to ask, are you friends with Josephine?

Crap wait what if she thinks I like Josephine!? Why do you care? Josephine is pretty cute anyways. Yeah, I guess but idk.

As I'm waiting, I start to wonder who I really like? I feel like Brianna would treat me better but I feel like Josephine genuinely likes me, but it looks like I'm I just have to wait and see.

Brianna: Oh, Well yeah were best friends.

Oh, I guess I did get the wrong idea, maybe she just wanted to help her friend. Welp lets just see how this plays out. Yeah, I guess...

Brianna: Why?

She's on to us. Just be casual. Mhm.

Me: Oh just wondering...

She's gonna think were interested, She's gonna wonder why were asking about her friends. She's gonna know. She can't...

Brianna: Do you like her?

SHIT, SHIT, SHIT, WHAT DO I DO. WE JUST HAVE TO SAY YES OR ELSE SHE'LL KNOW!! PLUS Josie isn't all that bad.

Me: Kinda, well yeah. Why?

I drop my phone lay back and put my hands on my face. I think about what I'm doing.

What if I end up with Josephine? Do I even like Brianna at all? Does she even like me? Who do I like???

She takes a minute to reply and I take this time to try and calm myself down and think about what to say. 

I'm also trying to figure out if she likes me.

I see her typing and my heart starts beating out of my chest. 

Brianna: I'll help you if you want! :) 

What the hell?? she'll help me? get with... Josephine? Maybe she doesn't like me after all...

Me: What do you mean? You'll help me get with her?

Brianna: Yeah sure! I have her number want it?

Her mood is so different. Why? Take the number maybe Josephine will be better for you. I guess...

Me: You'd do that for me?? well, I mean sure. When do you think I should text her?

I don't know who I like yet. maybe if I talk to Josie more, I'll like her more. either way, my real question is...

What the hell am I doing?

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A/N ok I really am not feeling this chapter but I still have a bunch of scattered ideas in my head well see how everything turns out.