Fighting Back

Best friends for life

Maybe I was too harsh on him...

I start walking normally to the quad and I see from the corner of my eye, that he's still standing there. Sad.

Oops? 

"Maybe I should have just had a small conversation with him it wouldn't have hurt." I turn back, and as I was about to walk back towards him I was pulled by... Josephine. What I noticed though was that Conner was. Crying... 

I felt sick. I felt that block of ice come back into my throat.

 I was so harsh, he just wanted to be my friend. 

Josie keeps dragging me as she continues to talk to me but I can't even focus. I then see Conner wipe his tears and walk away. He's broken... 

Once I was in the quad I lost myself with Josie. The worst part was that she couldn't stop talking about Tyler. It hurt. She went on and on and I thought of what Tyler and I could have been. But I can't say anything. She can never know, no one can.

The snack bell rang and we started walking to our third period. I had Tyler in that class... As I walked toward my class I saw Conner... Crying. He looked at me, his eyes bloodshot red, tears pouring out like a spill. He whimpered quietly and ran away. 

"Why is he so hurt? I don't remember him being that sensitive. I didn't even talk to him much"

Conner's P.O.V:

I ran as fast as I could my tears leaving me behind chasing my opposite direction. I ran into the gym. It was empty and safe. I cried more and more. 

I just can't forget her. I just can't stop loving her. I never could.

When I saw her on the first day I knew everything would be ok but obviously, she doesn't like me.

I sat in the gym storage room and just cried. I felt pathetic, I felt hopeless. But I just couldn't get her out of my mind. Like today when I saw her in class. She looked gorgeous, a true angel that walked this hell they call earth. Ever since I first met her I was never able to keep my eyes off of her. "She's perfect and she'll never be mine," I said in a whisper as I punched the storage door and tucked my head into my knees and cried more.

I was always there even if she didn't know that I was, even when she had a rough time in elementary, she never knew who I was but I knew her... and I loved her, I always have. I wish I could have been stronger for her, and take care of her. Maybe I could even fix my broken angel.

One day. She doesn't even know who you are. I know and that's fine, as long as I don't loose her.

My eyes felt as if they were about to fall out of their sockets, I cried so much. Third period was almost over and my eyes were bloodshot red.

Since I'm pathetic and sensitive I always carry eyedrops for these occasions. I wipe my tears away and swallow my sadness. I take a moment to calm down and squeezed out a drop for each eye and let it set in. 

Breathe you'll be ok. You're going to have to face her in 5th period. I know.

After my eyes became white again I walked out of the closet and continued to my 4th-period class as the bell rang.

Just in time. Nerd. Shut up.

We walk into class and I take my seat. My mind still thinking about her.

Brianna's P.O.V:

He was gone before I could ask him anything. He disappeared to who knows where. I walked to my third-period class feeling horrible, suddenly it all melted away when I walked in to see tyler and it turned into a different feeling. First I felt a rush of love, then I remembered and it felt as if all my energy was sucked out of me. I sat down in my seat next to him, My stomach feeling sick. 

Talk to him. What's the point...

I felt my heart sinking into my stomach the longer that I thought about him, and the longer I knew that I could never have him... He side-eyed me, and I caught it and he almost immediately returned his attention to his conversation. Just that glimpse of a "side-eye" that he gave me, greeted my heart with what felt like an electric shock of some sort of feeling. I felt drained of my energy again.

Why give myself false hope. True but if you act "sad" they will suspect something. You're right...  

I continued to my thoughts.

The weekend is so close. Just make it to the weekend.

Class speeded through like that, the next thing I knew our teach gave up trying to get our attention and just sat at his desk. Free time, now we were actually allowed to talk even though we never stopped in the first place. Except me, I just started to where ever and got lost in my thoughts, my safe place. I felt a gentle tap on my shoulder. 

Tyler.

I was startled merely because of how deep I was in my thoughts, I come back into reality and focus myself. It was Tyler.

Tyler: Hey, um Brianna. I just wanted to ask, are we still friends?

Brianna: Of course! what made you think that we weren't?

Tyler: Well, since I was gonna date Josephine I just wanted to know if we were still cool. I don't know I just had a feeling that you didn't like what was happening. I- I don't know I'm sorry I just thought, cause you haven't really talked to me- just forget it I don't know.

Ouch. "since I was gonna date Josephine" well shit. Wait... he's nervous? why?? 

Brianna: That's weird. Of course, we're still friends! Tyler, you're like my best friend! and me not I like what's happening? of course, after all, Jo is my best friend too! I want the best for her.

I tried my best to fake the smile. After all, it was what I did best... 

I was surprised I got through saying all that without throwing up or crying.

Tyler: Best friends? You and I?

Brianna: Oh, If you didn't want to- I didn't know- I'm sorry I ju-

Tyler: No no, best friends that's perfect. 

Brianna: Really? haha good...

Damnit. At least you can still have him in your life. I would die if I lost him.

Tyler: Hey Brianna can I ask you something?

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A/N: best friends?? do you think you can handle that Bri? It might hurt watching from the sidelines than actually playing the game dont you think? 

-love y'all. im cheesy lmao.