Fighting Back

Fun I never had

"We're not alone in this world."

As soon as he finished his sentence he couldn't hold his tears in any longer and he just cried, right in front of me... I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to feel. At the moment maybe it was just my emotions and me being in the moment that caused this but I didn't think twice and I grabbed his face and kissed him. I kissed him so passionately and I felt so much love for him. Why did I never see it before??

How come I never paid attention to him? Why did I never love him before? 

Then I realized...

 and I woke up.  

"AHHHHHH!!!! oh, oh god. Again! Why do I keep having this nightmare! it's been a week now!"

Ever since that day that Conner broke right in front of me and confessed he loved me, I've been having this "nightmare" where the situation re-creates in my mind and I kiss and fall in love with him. After he broke down he just ran away to the gym and I was quiet for the rest of the day. This whole week I've been kinda quiet. Josie has been talking to Tyler a lot more, and Tyler and I are still "Best friends". I hate it... He hangs out with us now and they always talking non-stop. I'm pretty sure he likes her now and it hurts like hell...

Tyler and I still have our phone calls but... That's pretty much it. My only escape now is him, our time alone is my heaven. But lately, our phone calls do get flirty I guess sometimes and I don't know how to feel. The more I talk to him, the deeper I fall... and the more we talk the more  I feel we get closer. I learn more about him every day and he learns more about me. He knows more than Josie does! I don't know what it is but I just trust him so much.

Today its Saturday and I'm home alone. 

Bless. 

"I'm so glad my mom is always working and I never get to see her." 

I love it.

I go downstairs to get some breakfast and I have a text from Conner.

 "Oh great."

 I make my cereal and sit down to eat as I unlock my phone and read the message.

Conner: Goodmorning beautiful <3 

"Oh god help me" 

He's way too confident over text.

 Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, I've been talking to Conner every day as well. Mostly because I felt like an asshole that day when he cried and I was hoping it would make the nightmares go away but nope! and now I'm stuck with him. I can't complain all that much because he's actually really nice and he does literally- literally... Anything for me. He's kinda grown on me though I'm not going to lie.

Me: Goodmorning Conner.

Conner: Hey so wyd rn?

Me: Nothing why?

Conner: I wanna take you out.

He is wayyyyy too confident over text. But will there be food? Shut up.

Me: Take me out? To eat or something?

Conner: Anything. I'll pay don't worry, it doesn't even matter. I just want to see you and take you out.

Free food! I know but isn't this a date? So what! food! You're an ass. Hey, that's my line.

  "God, I'm crazy I swear."