The Bad Girls Life

Insane

Three hours. Three fucking hours we've been sat in this hospital. jais parebts were here when we got here the doctors havent told them anythimg. the police say that its was more tahn likely a careless driver that didnt see him. i need answers even if i have to turn this place upside down. as i satnd up my mums goes to grab hold of my arm but i moved to fast. As I march up to the desk the 2 women there don't even look up. 'Hello I little bit of I don't know gratitude. Please' I say calmly for now. 'I'm sorry miss what is it' One of them say. 'I'd like to know the condition of a patient with the name of Jamerson Matthew please' I say.  'Are you family' She says chewing her gum like it's the last thing ever. 'Yeah. How is he' I say getting a little annoyed. 'I'm sure a doctor will be out in a minute will you bare with us please' She says turning back to her friend to start talking again. 'I heard the same thing three fucking hours ago. Tell me how is he is find me someone who can. OR I WILL GO AND FIND OUT FOR MY FUCKING SELF' I say screaming. As she looks at me for about 30 seconds like I've gone mental. 'Okay bye' I say setting off to go around the hospital. 'We both one it's not a good idea to go alone' Chris says walking along side me.

As we walk down on corridor full of doctors and surgeons i immidently know that hes down thos corrodoor. i jyst had that feeling as run down the passage looking in every room. until i see him malyied there his eyes barely open as here that swollen. his legs both in casts a tube comeing out of his stomah. before going in the rooom i messagee my mum to say if found him. as i turn around a doctor is coming towards me. 'excuse me miss you cant be on this floor. can i ask you kindly to remove your self from the floor' A young i predict junior doctor says kindly. 'could you please tell me his condition, please im begging you' i see looking into his eyes trying to fight back the tears. 'i will do every thing i can to help you but you being on the corridoor is of risk to your friend. its in your best interests to listen to me' he says smiling weakly at me. 'okay thank you ill be wakting outside' i say going outside tp where i see his parents crying in each others arms. 'did you see him is he okay what is  his condition' his mum say hugging me like im the only one pother tahn her who loves him. 'hes okay it looks worse than it is i promise. his condition that guy right hrere is going to tell is once hes done a check. and if he doesnt im gonna kill him' i say seriously. 'thank you so much. we wouldnt havr thought or dared to go and look for him. thank you' his dad says. this is the first time ive evrr said anything violebt in frount of jais parents. werid i know but belive it r not first immpressins are a big thing for me. 

My mum takes me to one side. 'how bad does he really look' She says quietly enough for only us to here it. 'its bad really bad. mum im scared i know that hes probally the most scared or his parents but if i lost him. i dont id be able to function' i say burstig out crying again. 'i know you are. how about you go for a walk somewhere try and clear you head. go places whrre you have memories with him. ill ring you if we have any news. okay' she says hugging me. me and mum dont hug very offten when something goes wrong or if weve done so mething unexpected. as i walk out the hospital i just want to able to go home call him and him come though my window in twenty minututs and tellme it was just a bad dream. so i go the only pklave that makes me feel that safe. the middle of a field. wed drive up here and sit here for hours drinking waht ever we could get are hands on. i told him about every thing that night. my dad. dan. dan i could just call him. no dont call him he wouldnt be interested. he wouldnt even be up its two am in the morning on a wednesday. shit we have school tommrow. chris has school tommrow hes not going to be able to function. as i pull out my phone i starts to ring as i anser it.its my mum saying that hes allowed visitors his aorebts have just gone in. his dad came back out saying that he needs to speak to me. ive never ran so fast in my life. 

as i run back on the ward i see chris stood there looking like a zombie. 'mum take him home. he needs sleep okay. he has school tommrow. well today. i know how much he hares misiing school take him hime please' i say walking back on to the ward. 'im sorry for kepping you and your family waiting' the doctor from earlier says opening me the door. 'its okay can o have a moment alone with him please' i say before evr looking at jai. as the doctor leaves. 'you have no idea how much i want to kill you but kiss you right now' i say tearing up as he moves his hand into mine. 'id prefer the second option. how have you been' he says smilimg. 'good until i get a call from your mum off your phone saying youve been in an acciedent' i say not reciprocating the smile with another. 'im sorry that i did it today of all days' he says trying to sit up. ' thats so not a good idea with that tube. how did this happen' i say sitting on the chair. 'it was a car behind me it went to over take me and then rammed me off he side of the road. before hey drove off really fast' he say pulling me up to lay with him on the bed.

The next daywell rhat day at about 4ish. the doctor who i meet has now been assigned to over see his treatment. has recomendec for me to go home as thats har i have to do. as he told jai soo he wouldnt shut up about it. as i begin my walk hoem im not even out of the car park before someone shouts my name. 'Chris told mewhat happend. why didnt you call me'Dan says opening his arms. 'i didnt want to worry you at 3 in the morning or 12 when i got the call. i wasnt thinking and i didnt want you to worry' I say as he kisses the top of my head. 'i dont give a shit what time it is  what is it or who it is. if you up and its worryimg you interesteded. i love you' He says opening the car door. 'okay. i love you too'