Kian should be back with Alex soon. I sat there flipping through channels out of boredom. I decided to turn the TV off and play some music. I danced around the kitchen as I loaded the dishes into the washer. My music stopped playing when a phone call started coming in.
It was Kian. "Hey babeh."
"Hey JJ. What're you doing?"
"Dancing. Waiting for you guys to get back."
"Well just your luck I'm in the driveway."
I squealed and ended the call. I skipped out to the car. A little boy with square wire frame glasses hopped out of the car. I smiled at the 3 foot tall heart throb. He probably is such the trouble maker. I chuckled and walled to Kian, kissing him gently.
"Ew Ki," Alex cringed.
I giggled and Kian looked at him, "Don't act like you and Mariah haven't kissed before." I chuckled.
We watched tv and ordered out. Alex has been great.
Over the week we played games, took him to the park.
But he did give us trouble some days. I didn't know what to do when he'd throw tantrums. Kian'd always be there though. He's my rock when I just collapse. Like today for example.
When my dad passed away.
My heart feels like it's ripped out of my chest. My spine breaking, unable to pull off the illusion i'm okay. I fell to my knees, my legs cracking like leaves in the fall. Feeling Kian's touch on my shoulders made them break. He lifted me gracefully off of the floor. I felt like my body was still on the floor. I was weightless. I don't know where he took me. I couldn't talk. My vocal chords were gone. Non existent.
He was there for me.
I love him endlessly for that.
He is my light in the gloomy night. He is truly my fairy tale man.
"Can I talk to you?"
"Yeah anything."
"I want us to be married."
The words had shocked me. Still sending chills down my spine a week later. He had told me we will be married one day. I'd never seen a gleam like that in his eyes ever. I'm trying to find out why I'm feeling the way I feel. While Kian is at work I spin in circles around the living room listening to soft melodies and sit in thought. It's like I'm lost without him. I'm taking a stroll in the backyard woods. The soft crunching of leaves on my bare feet giving me serenity. I walked and walked until it was twilight. Fireflies twinkling in clusters.
It was euphoria.
