Oh lover,
I fell in love every single day
with the idea of you
But that is not love!
Only fantasy
•••
The constant aches in my body the pounding in my brain what will it take to make it go away
My souls screams silently I whisper to myself to keep my mind at ease anything random noises singing verses to songs reciting mantras all in my own voice
Just to drown out yours
It echoes in the vast emptiness of my mind because when you speak I forget everything
A trance that is slowly killing me
•••
Stuck in a maze of mirrors
Not sure which is the real me
1,000 almost identical people mimicking my every move
A distorted reality that shifts ever so slightly
Without warning I am shoved outside the body I inhabit
Watching her instinctively go through the motions until her conditioned state is broken and she escapes to solitude
I am briefly sucked back inside her body as she inhales the poisonous vapors
I nestle myself inside her lungs and begin to spread throughout her veins
I feel her smile as my warmth spreads through her
And for those brief moments we are united again
Body and soul.
•••
What if this is all a goddamn lie?
I put so much fucking faith in things I'm not sure exist.
What the fuck happens when I die?
What if this is really it?
I will never know what comes after and that is what I fear the most.
I don't fear death.
I fear what comes after.
And I'm afraid because I
Don't fucking know.
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Repressed Memories
RandomSometimes the only way to cope is to get it all out. For me that is writing. A brief yet sometimes in-depth display of childhood memories. These are true events in my life. *I will warn readers before hand with this disclaimer: If you are triggered...
