*self harm/alcoholism*
'Get a grip'
My mother said that to me after I had swallowed half a bottle of pills.
Sorry, I said that wrong.
She screamed it at me.
I had just swallowed half a bottle of pills.
I had the strength to tell her because I got scared
I didn't want to die yet
And she chose to break me down even more.
Which made me realize I should've just taken more and let them do their job.
I should've let myself die.
'Cause all I was
Was just a bother.
Right mom?
Well look at me now.
And go look at yourself.
You have hit rock bottom
I can't even begin to comprehend why you do this
But I do know that you are selfish and you clearly don't want help
Because I have tried- even though you never did.
You don't want to change. You want to suffer.
Because you won't take the steps to get better.
You can do all this stuff to make it look like you care
But you don't. You're trying to self destruct
And it's pathetic. It's hypocritical.
So dear mother,
There's one thing I want to say now:
'Get a fucking grip'
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Repressed Memories
RandomSometimes the only way to cope is to get it all out. For me that is writing. A brief yet sometimes in-depth display of childhood memories. These are true events in my life. *I will warn readers before hand with this disclaimer: If you are triggered...
