I finally told someone
And now that the secret is out
These feelings are even more scary.
If I look through the window I can almost see your house.
Well not really. But I can imagine.
I can imagine someday I might break and want to confess.
I might go to your house and knock on the door
And tell you my feelings
And you'd slam the door in my face after calling me stupid.
Catastrophic
Destined to fail
Are we star crossed?
No silly, because he doesn't love you back. He doesn't even know that you love him.
How stupid am I?
To have feelings for someone like him.
•••
10:14pm
I want to break into your house and drown myself in your bathtub.
I want you to wake up in the morning and find my lifeless body in your sanctuary.
And I want it to haunt you.
I want to haunt you until the end of time.
I want you to HURT.
I want you to feel the way I did.
Because you fucking hurt me.
I want it to kill you.
Slowly.
I want to torture you.
•••
And I still find myself at that spot we used to walk to back in ninth grade.
Remember, it was when we couldn't drive yet.
It was the one that overlooked the entire town.
The one that I only went to with you.
I don't know why I hold on to this.
But it's the one thing I have left of you.
One thing that's completely pure- not corrupted by anyone else.
It was just you and me.
We were so young.
We had no idea what would happen in the future.
And we thought we'd be together forever.
I remember.
Do you remember?
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Repressed Memories
RandomSometimes the only way to cope is to get it all out. For me that is writing. A brief yet sometimes in-depth display of childhood memories. These are true events in my life. *I will warn readers before hand with this disclaimer: If you are triggered...
