A Struggle With Love

Tipping Point

Jon was yelling out of the door in utter rage as he rattled a cutlery tray.
"Oi, Howard! Are you sure that's where the spoons go?!"
Russell smirked, Jon's so cute when he's angry.
"I dunno who cares?" He teased.
"Me, that's who."
"You're cute when you're angry." Russell beamed without thinking.
Shit.
"What?" Jon was bright red and glaring at Russell.
"T-the girls, they'll think it's cute."
"Oh right, doubt it."
There was an awkward silence as Russell stared sadly into an empty coffee mug. Jon looked concerned.
"Something up?" He inquired, confused at Russell's depressed manor, this wasn't like Russell at all and he had been like it for weeks.
"Russ, seriously."
"What? Oh. Nothing." Russell sounded unsure.
"You're a crap liar mate."
Russell raised his eyebrows and continued to swish around the last drop of coffee in his Liverpool FC mug.
"Fine then." Sighed Jon.
Russell slammed his fist on the table with a sound of frustration and abruptly stood up.
"Russ do you want another coffee?" Jon asked- but it was too late. Russell was already half way up the stairs, out of hearing range.

At 3 A.M Russell was still awake, he couldn't sleep, forcing back tears because 'he's a man, and men don't cry, right?' That's what he thought to himself, anyway, but he thought too soon, around a minute later he was crying his eyes out, he had no idea why he was sad, none whatsoever. Maybe it was Jon's dismissal of his flirting. No, it couldn't be, he was sad before that.
Suddenly he had a storm of complete and utter depression as his thoughts rushed around his head and needless guilt consumed him. He pushed himself up to the windowsill. His body was shaking but he couldn't feel it, he felt numb, he couldn't breathe properly and his hearing was muffled. He reached for the window handle and turned it. The wind hit his face and pushed his un-gelled hair back. He stood, balancing on the outside ledge. Looking down, he smirked.
"Long way down." He whispered to himself, and he took his foot of the edge and sighed "Thank God." As his body effortlessly fell.