❝Broken Hearted Me❞

~ Chapter XII ~

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"Ghellen" I utter a wail, pooling more tears realizing I had engaged to betray my boyfriend.

A kiss of unfaithful heart screwed me from everything. I had made a mistake again, not only once, not twice but a countable times.

I forget how to breathe from what I had done, my body quivered undivinely in his sinful kiss, in his sinful caress. My soul burnt, skin as hot freshly escape from hell where I should be gone, I'm such a traitor, deceitful.

It tore my heart unwinding how I allow the temptation manipulates me. I allow the man I hated to kiss me. I allow the troubles tangled me, I allow this guy gone my nerve crazy.

I hate him! I hate myself too!

He was surprised when I call his twin name, his emotional eyes begun to rage looking at me, killing me softly. It hurled me to feel more intense looking in his piercing eyes that made my eyes blind. I was blind of being such a fool, played by this rude.

He's not Ghellen, he looks like him but its not him. Why I felt the same? I never thought it happen again, I could not bear to know the answers. My conscience already pleads from the troubles I engage with, like a death sentence was waiting for my own crime.

I panic knowing he's starting to be angry, his arms are more tighter securing me not to move, clutching my hands at my back roughly. A rushed of helplessness was gathering inside my body and also, losing hope to get rid of what I had started to feel.

Everything I knew came falling apart, he ruin everything that I use to put in place. He ruin my dreams, he ruin the confidence and trust I keep building for my self, and I don't know who am I anymore, I don't know if I am still the girl Ghellen fell inlove with. It was not even my fault but why it was so traumatizing? I'm not familiar with this but it took me to a feeling of dying.

I freak out, my emotions quickly went through shock to pain to sadness to horror and then to utmost disgust. I would never ever gonna like this bastard! Not in my whole life! Cause this whole thing isn't real, this isn't happening. This is not true nonetheless this I'd gone through.

He kiss me again, the force was terribly manipulating, it went my strength losing. I could not manage to think, to do what I have to do. I could not manage to see whats right from wrong though I barely knew.

A gut to push him away was the only hope to get away from him. Shock heart that beats falsely and unwanted feelings tide inside my body, fighting against my will. I shivered, filled with loathing in his strength, but I need to put it through, I need to break whatever strange things transpires us.

Tears keeps pooling in my eyes when I withdrawn upon his touch, trying to escape in his tight embrace. He loosens his grip so he could wipe my tears away but I sudden strike his hand before it went to my cheeks. That's enough, he already took advantage of me, and I know I was wrong when I let him did all of this. It shouldn't went this far.

"Please, my boyfriend is waiting for me.." I blurted a pleads, never thought if I should still be the girlfriend Ghellen could be proud of. I am such ashamed.

"Toffeah.." he called me. I heard his voice same tone as how Ghellen called me every morning when he came to my room, to wake me up. It was so tender, a little bit manly, then I realize he was altering himself to be the love of my life Ghellen. Of course they are identical twins, they may have the same voice but their intuitions must be different.

That's ridiculous!

This guy already assaulted me today, I never wish to be with this guy ever in my whole life, and if I would, I rather die!