That Good Night // phan

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Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
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But that wasn't the end of the dan and Phil era was it? No. you picked me up from the rubble. It took us a while, but luckily it happened. We rebuilt our friendship, and we became best friends again. The kind of friends that people all over the world were jealous of.

I still had feelings for you. I knew you didn't. I had hurt you. I was the one who broke up with you. You had your friends. I had you. You were my only friend. I was awkward in front of your friends. I was a loner. You were my best friend but I still felt empty.

I liked you but I couldn't do anything about it. I couldn't talk to my subscribers. I was afraid. So I did something. I went to a therapist. I never told you this. She helped me through a lot. She helped me become more comfortable with who I am. I tried to get past my dark past. My past of depression. It took a long time. Years. I don't know if you ever noticed. I started talking more to your friends. It was all thanks to my therapist. I guess, maybe you could talk to her for me. Her name is Susan Casper. Say thank you.

Phil. She wasn't the only one that got me through it all. I started paying attention to all the love around me. The love from my fans, the love from you. It might not have been the love I was looking for, but that was good enough. You loved me, even if it was platonic. But I'm grateful. I don't know if I would have been able to get past all my problems if you hadn't been there to pick me up. So I guess, thank you to you too. I've told you so many times, but I hope that this time it has finally made a difference, just like the difference you made in my life. I was happier because of you.

Thank you for that.
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