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||John Laurens||
:September 11th 2016:
Okay.
What the hell is happening.
And how the hell did it happen.
From the time in which I met Alexander, to now, I have discovered color, found out about my mother dying, had to turn in at least fifty essays in a week, and became in love with someone.
And it was a mess.
I have no idea what to call my current emotion. Cautious? Confused? Helpless? Overwhelmed? Probably overwhelmed. No, most definitely overwhelmed. So much shit is happening at once. And I have no idea how to handle it all.
There is too much to think about.
-My Mom
-School
-My ability to have color
-AlexanderFurthermore, one of those conflicts is completely dominating all the others.
Alexander.
I've known him for about a month now and I never knew from the moment I met him how important he would be to me. He has taken over my entire life and I don't know if it's good or bad.
Over the past week, I've realized how in love with him I was. Let me rephrase that, over the past week, I've noticed how entirely gay I was for him.
Haha, but seriously.
I have never felt this way before.
Whenever I talk to him, I feel butterflies in my stomach.
Whenever he smiles, my insides explode.
Whenever we're close, I heat up to the point where I almost faint.
And just to think...that this man is destined to be with me is insane.
Why? Why ME of all people? Why am I the one for him? What's so special about me?
I don't deserve him.
I don't know the facts, but I am entirely grateful.
I love him so much.
I feel like Cinderella singing 'So this is Love'.
I'm just so...so...
Helpless.
But now I have to think about...
When exactly are we going to get together? Because I'm becoming impatient.
I just want to live the day where we're holding hands, kissing,...making love??
...
Okay, minus that last part.
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