You'll Play The Romeo, Ill Play The Juilet. (Of Mice & Men)

Sarah Smiles

//Lindsay

Austin hugs me goodbye, and kisses Briar on her forehead, and walks out of the apartment to go meet up with the guys so they can get some ideas on songs, and their method for next week when they leave to go to New Jersey, and record their new album. Austin has been extremely bipolar lately about leaving because he is excited about getting ready to record their new songs, and make some new songs, but he also doesn't want to leave behind Briar, and me. I keep reassuring him everything is going to be alright, and that I have everything under control, but he always keeps referring back to the night I had been dead tired because I had stayed up all night with Briar.

I am really torn about him leaving because Briar is just a month old, and Dan won't be moving into California for another two months so he can make sure that everything had been transferred. So I'm only going to have the girls to be with, who might I add are always quite busy with work, and probably won't have a lot of time to be with me, and keep me company. I have already decided that if everything is going well that I am going to do some prints for Dan for his apartment. I also will be picking up photography, and doing my prints if I am up to it yet. Having Briar is hard because I have all of these things I want to do, but I can't because Austin is never home. I also do all of the grocery shopping, cleaning, cooking, then I have to take care of Briar all by myself for the most part. It truly is really hard having a baby to take care of because you always have to keep an eye on them. I really, really love Briar though, and I do not at all regret having her. Although, I do believe that it would have been better timing if it we would have waited a little while longer, but it is what it is. She is insanely adorable, and I love her with everything I have. To know that she is mine, and Austin's child, makes her 10x more perfect.

** One Week Later **

"You know I don't want to leave you, and Briar here, right?" Austin asks me as he kisses Briar's forehead.

"I know, Austin, but you have to get to work to support us, I love you," I tell him as I kiss him deeply, and with passion.

"I love you too," he whispers into my hair, and putting his hand on my back.

I put Briar in her carriage, and jump into Austin. I hug him tightly, and cry into his shoulder.

"babe, everything is going to be okay, I promise. I love you. I'll Skype you every night, alright?"

We say our goodbyes, and Austin makes his way into the terminal. He had decided to leave a day late so he could spend just one more day with me. Now he's going across the country for work. I pick Briar up in her carriage, and we make our way out of the airport, and back into the car so we can make our way out to get some lunch for me, and then we will go home, and I'll feed her, then eat my lunch, and put her down for a nap, and then I can do my work.

** A Little While Later **

I finish up the prints that Dan had asked me to make for him, and printed them out onto a couple canvas'. I had also edited some of the pictures I had taken around Huntington, and LA a while back, so all I have to do with them is upload them onto my store, and tumblr. Having some time to myself has really made me think about some things, and I have a lot of ideas of what I want to do with this career.

&& quite frankly, I am really excited for this.