...And I heard a very loud "I LOVEEEEE YOUUUUU" from him.. We were both tired so I rested on his arms. I remembered the past, while he was looking at the ceiling of our room, catching his breath.. He's tired..
Me: Tired?
Him: No, if you're the one I'm with.
Me: Hmm.. I wanna ask about something.
Him: What is it?
(I didn't respond for several minutes.. The man who was once just my crush is now a president. The man who was once served our class now serves the country.. He's now a president.. He's now President Hubert Mead, the 16th president of our republic.. A lot has changed.. We've been through a lot but why am I still afraid of losing him? What if being together for more than a decade end in vain bacause maybe.. maybe he still loves that one..)
Him: Hey, what is it?? Did you fall asleep?
Me: Uhhm.. No, I'm still awake.
Him: What are you asking again??
Me: Love... Do you still love that person???
Him: That person?
Me: Yes, that person. You know.. The one you loved before.
Him: It already came from you, it was before. It was so long ago. (His obviously irritated response)
Me: Why are you mad?? You still do, don't you???
Him: If I still love that person, you wouldn't be here.. by my side.
Me: But what if you're just using me? What if I'm not the one you love and your just using me for your needs?? (My voice was cracking but I'm stopping myself from crying..)
Him: Jovielle.. I have already forgotten Kevin. Yes, this what I am.. Bisexual.. Does it mean that I am just using you?? Isn't it enough that I show and make you feel that I love you?? That you are the one I love?? That I've forgotten him and you're really the one?? I love you so much Jovie and I don't want you to think that it's still Kevin.. I'm not deceiving you, okay?
Me: (Feeling the hot liquid dripping from my eyes) But why is it like this? My fear is still here.. We've been together for a decade but.. I'm still afraid..
Him: Don't be.. I'll be here for you, as a song says. Now, Jovielle, because we've been together for ten years, I will make you feel that you're really the one, and the only one that I'll love until my last breath.. I want to take your hand again..
Me: (Overwhelmed by mixed emotions while my tears continue to flow) I'm sorry. I should've trusted you. But Love, I just want you to know that this has nothing to do with what you are. This has nothing to do with you being bisexual. This is about us. You know what? I don't care about your gender, I don't care whether or not you're straight. All I care about is you because I love you. All of us deserve to love, and be loved. Whatever kind of person each of us is, everyone must be treated equally. Everyone of any gender must be treated with respect. I love you no matter what.
Him: Jovielle Gopez-Mead.. Eventhough today being in the third sex is a big issue in our country.. even if I am one of, them.. even if I loved him.. even if people judge us.. we have the freedom to express ourselves.. but look, Love. Even if i am bisexual, that doesn't mean I am using you to fill in my needs.. I am a bisexual but I loved, I am loving, and I will love you until the very end.. You, and our children.. and now, Will you marry me.. again???
