-He is right there staring at me. I think i might be falling in love with him. I think my universe might have just changed. Now i think my foot is not touching on the floor anymore. There is no gravity. Just me and him. I think i should talk to him. Its been weeks we are staring at each other, smiling. But no talk however. He is coming towards me. Omg. He is talking. I cant hear a word he says beacuse of my heart beats. Okay im calming now. Oh my. He is so...beatiful. Wait! Did he just ask me out. OMG he did he just did. Im so happy i should say yes... Right? Yes yes yes i yelled. That was loud. Oh my his laugh. I hope this goes good........-
-Wow it has been 3 months. Im so happy to be with him. He said he loves me yesterday but i didnt.... I couldnt.... I dont know why. I do... I do love him but i just couldn't say it.
Oh no what is that my nose is bleeding wh_________ -
Where am i?
Doc: you are at the hospital. Your nose was bleeding and then you passed out so your friends brought you here.
Is something wrong with me?
Doc: we dont know yet. We gotta run some tests
-oh god i hope im okay i dont want any health issues. My life was just getting better-
Jace: hey there you ok?
Yea. I guess.
Jace: you scared the hell out of me
Yea i think i scared the hell out of myself.
Jace: you will be fine. Its probably just a simple nose bleeding
Doc: hey there i have to cut you out. We need to run those tests now. Dont worry ill bring her back in few seconds.
-2 weeks passed i wanna know whats wrong with me!-
-why is mom crying. Is there something wrong with me. Oh no. Im dying right. Ofcourse i am. This is what i call luck. My life was just perfect. Ughhh what are they saying!!-
Doc: i talked to your mother and she thinks its best if i tell you.
Oh no its coming...
Doc: Lizzie.... You have a brain tumor
-i couldn't say a word. Tears started coming of my eyes. I couldnt hold them. How could it be possible? How can i die at the most beautiful time of my life? What am i gonna tell Jace? How am i gonna leave him? Is he gonna leave me instead? God. I dont know what to do. I never thought how i would die before. I enever thought i would die now...this early....now..?-
-Its been 2 weeks i didnt go to school. I havent answer any of Jace's calls. I dont know what im suppose to say to him. I dont know if i can even say anything to him. Im scared to talk. Im scared to tell him. Because i know... The moment i open my mouth tears are gonna come out. My voice is gonna crack and im gonna be weak. I have to find a way to break up with him. Without breaking him.-
Jace!
Jace: why havent you answered my calls.. Am i that wothless to you?! Do t you care about me at all? Ive been worried!
I want to break up with you
Jace: what?!?
I cant deal with this anymore. Its meaningless. It's not even love
Jace: how_____ i cant___ talk to me! Lizzie!!
I couldnt hold my tears. I left crying. Everyone was looking at me. Like i was an insect like i was doing all this on purpose like i wanted to do it. Did u see his face?.. He was soo sad. He wasnt electing it at all. He told me he lived me and i broke up with him. Brutal. I dont know what im going to do. He hates me now. He hates me!!!
I hate myself. I hate this world. What did i do to deserve this!!! Tears tears tears.... I cant stop them. I cant stop crying. I love him. But i cant love someone to death can i. It was for the best. He would have been more hurt if he knew. I did the right thing.... Right?-
Jace: lizzie!!!
What the hell. Who is that? Jace?!
Jace: lizzie i love you. I didn't mean to upset you. I dont even know what i did. Please forgive me. Please dont leave me. Lizzie i love you.
-tears tears tears... He loves me. He loves me soo much but i cant...i cant love him back to life. I only have moths. I cant do this to him.-
Jace go away please!
Jace: not untill you tell me why
Just go away!
Jace: no! Tell me tell me why!
Because i dont love you. Because you are pathetic. Look at you! Begging for love. Now go away.
-omg. Did u see the look on his face. Now he hates me. Now he actually hates me. I made him hate me. I did this. He lived me but i pushed him back. Byt i cant. I just cant.
2 days later. Oh my god. Gow am i gonna look at his face now. We have the same classes how am i gonna stand seeing him.-
Jace: oh wow she is back. You happy now Lizzie!! You feel better now?!?! You threw me away like i was nothing! You treated me like i was nothing. But u know what. I am not the problem here! You are! You and your pathetic self!
-tears coming tears omg-
Im dying!
-i yelled-
I have tumor!
-he looked at me. He wasnt expecting it at all. I thought for one second he was gonna cry. He came closer to me. Ended up right in front of my face. Looked at me.
Kissed me.
He pulled himself back and looked at me again and i said "I LOVE YOU"
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