My Unwanted Admirer **COMPLETE**

Chapter Twenty Six

I had just finished my victory dance that was going on in my head when Logan took my hand and let me to the bedroom. As we walked in Logan stood behind closing the door. "Lilly, why did you do that?" Logan asked. "Simple really Logan, I care about you. I can't and won't let you risk yourself for me. I don't care if it's your job or not. I won't have it. " I spoke confidently. Logan moved closer towards me and with each step he took my heart rate grew faster. We had too much history for it not too, but before I could collect my thought Logan had grabbed me by the waist and was pulling me impossibly close. "I'm so sorry Lilly, I've been trying my hardest. Trying not to get into this position. Trying to keep everything locked at bay, trying . . . But failing." His words were sincere. I hadn't seen this side of Logan since he had to move. His sweet hair dancing along with the wind when he told me he had to move. No- stop. I can't lose my self in the past. Not now. "I hate myself right now" Logan spoke.
"For what?" I replied.
"For this" he spoke quickly before I felt his lips crashing down on mine. I didn't think about what was happening at this moment, I just reacted by kissing him back. Oh god how good it felt to feel his lips pressed on mine once again. The taste of those precious plump lips as he deepened the kiss. His tongue fighting for dominance that we both knew he would win. I moved my hand through his silky hair as he held the nape of my neck and his other hand on the small of my back.

Before I would have liked the kiss had came to an end and I could feel myself hating this feeling. "I'm so sorry." Logan spoke. I was confused as hell. Why was he sorry? Did he not know I wanted that as much as he did? Maybe even more.
"Why are you sorry?" I whispered unintentionally.
"I've . . . I've been wanting to do that since I walked to the pub and seen you again." He spoke almost as if he didn't get it out he would explode. "No complaints here." I added.
"I shouldn't have done that Lilly, not now at least. I shouldn't have taken advantage of your current state." He replied. Current state? What did he mean my current state? Did he think I wasn't capable of making decisions now? "What do you mean?" I questioned. "I've taken advantage of you Lil, I should have held my composure a little longer. I just got so wrapped up in what you were saying in the living room and all I wanted to do was grab you and tell you I wouldn't go just so you wouldn't be upset."
His words meant more than he could have known. Right then and there I had remembered the reason I had fallen in love with him.

"I can't do this right now. I can't start something like this. It isn't fair on either of us." Logan spoke.
His words stung. My heart shattered and I felt broken. How did he have this affect on Me? I'd always known I'd never stopped loving him but this, this felt like right out and plain rejection.

Logan turned to leave and whispered "I'm sorry." Before opening the door and walking back out to the living room. His face showed remorse. I had never seen his beautiful face so. . . Awkward? I gathered my arms hugging my body, I had felt betrayed. We had just fucked everything up. Our friendship wouldn't be able to hold all this pressure of me loving him. I mean for gods sake we've only got back in contact the last couple a weeks and here I am.. Stood alone in the bedroom alone once again. If only I had thought before my reaction we mightn't be in this situation, but I can't deny that I've wanted it longer than Logan has.

I picked up my shattered heart and decided to take a shower. A shower always seem to help take my worries away. When I was younger I convinced myself that taking a shower washed all my worries and stress away. As I grabbed my stuff that the two lads had packed for me I made my way into the bathroom and turned on the shower.

Logan's POV
As I emerged from the bedroom I felt like crap. Why did I have to let my overbearing emotions toward her get in the way. I want nothing more than to hold her in my arms and tell her everything's going to be ok, but I can't. Seems like I've fucked that one up too. The look of sheer disappointment in her beautiful big eyes as I told her I couldn't do this made me want to grab her again and kiss her beautiful rose coloured lips.

I can't tho. I need to be strong. I nee to find out who this creep that is after my Lilly is. I need to find him and bring the son of a bitch down. How scared she is of him is going to make him wish he had never been born when I'm finished with him. I need to calm down, I'm working myself up too much and I need to relax. If I don't I'll explode and that wouldn't be good considering Lilly's in the next room. I'm about to ask the team what they found when my phone dings indicating a message.
One new message from : Unknown.
Well don't ye look very cozy, trust me your time will come when you pay for touching my Lillian.

Anger boiled up inside me when I realised it was a picture of me and Lilly kissing in the bedroom. "That fucker!" I shouted. He had been spying on us the whole time. He knew what we were doing and probably saying.

Fuck

Lilly,

I raced into the bedroom to see it empty. Not a word to be heard and not a soul inside. Frantically I shouted Lilly's name. No answer. Dread kicked in as I was wondering where she could be. If that S.O.B had taken her he would pay extremely well for it. I buried my head in my hands and began tugging on my hair. What was I doing. Why wasn't I out giving orders to find her. Instead why was I stuck here in this shitty little bedroom unable to move. Just then I heard a "God Damnit" coming from the bathroom. Yes, of course why didn't I check there in the first place. I had mustered up my energy again to barge into the bathroom to find Lilly wearing nothing but a towel, she had her head phones on and was obviously unaware of the past few moments that slipped by that felt like hours for me. I though she was gone. I thought I had lost her. Relief washed over me as I approached her carefully so not to startle her. That's when I noticed she had a cut on her leg from shaving. That must have been why she let out God Damnit. I slowly tapped her on her left shoulder and she jumped. She took out her earphones and spoke " Jesus Logan. You scared the crap out of me. What's up?" I contained my laughter giving how serious this was. Although she looked damn good in just a towel I had to focus myself. Snap out of it damnit. Now here I go at it. "Lilly, you should get dressed now." I spoke dominantly. "I can't, I still have to shave my other leg" she spoke surprised. Out of everything that's what she was worried about?
Women. . .
I'll never understand them.
"No time Lilly, we have to go. Now!" I demanded. Her safety is everything to me. I can't fail to protect her now when she needs me the most. "Get dressed. I'll wait in the bedroom for you." I spoke before rushing out the bathroom door.