Shawn Mendes Imagines

31. losing feeling

A/N. thanks for over 4K reads <333 also exciting news !! I got tickets to see him live in concert FINALLY ! I'm so excited.
Thank you for all your love and support also.
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QOTP: favourite Starbucks order?
A: green tea frap hehe

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Things were complicated. And I know Shawn felt it too. It was evident when he'd come home so late that he'd know I'd already be sleeping, but little did he realize, I never was asleep.

It was the same routine every night, I would be in bed by midnight, but he wouldn't come home until at least 1. He'd ever so lightly take the empty spot next to me, but he wouldn't put his arm around me nor kiss me goodnight. Things were changing, and as much as I wanted it not to, it was.

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"Did you sleep well?" I ask Shawn, seeing him stretch his arms, and make his way to the kitchen.
He shrugs, "alright I guess, you?" I do the same, placing my glass of orange juice down onto the counter, "the usual." I reply.
I watch as he places two pieces of bread into the toaster, both for himself of course, but I sit silently, my eyes fixated on his back.

I sigh, walking towards him and placing my hand on his shoulder.
"What's happening to us?" I question, feeling the anxiety beginning to build as I braced for his reply.
He looks at me, and frowns, "babe..." he trails, "I've been sort of seeing someone else.."

"Oh." I whisper, my head dropping low as I watch my toes wiggle, silence overtaking between us.

I don't look up, but I can feel Shawn's eyes watching me intently. I didn't want to move in that moment, but at the same time, I wanted to leave.

"I'm sorry, Y/N.. I should've told you this earlier, but I was afraid that you would hate me, and I didn't want that because you mean the world to me.. and I love you so much." He says, his voice cracking at the end.
I bite my lip, tears spilling out of eyes as I try to control myself from breaking into hysteric sobs.

"I get it, Shawn.." I sob quietly, "but I have to go." I say, turning on my heel and walking to the door, not bothering to put on a jacket.
"What do you mean you have to go?" Shawn calls after me, his hand catching ahold of my wrists.

I stop, not daring to look behind me as I pull my wrists out of his grip, unlocking the door.
"Don't worry about me, Shawn. I'm just going to find myself another happy place.. because I am no longer happy or needed here." I finish, walking out the door and closing it behind me.

I begin walking down the long hall, my eyes soaked with tears, and my heart in pieces.

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A/N: that was short :P sorry ahh but it was so emotional :/ can u imagine this happening? Like dang. Anyways, hope you guys' week was fantastic, thanks for reading as always <33 much love to every single one of you.

- Allie 💕