I am an Android..

chapter 12:doubt....

I closed my eyes..this is just a dream I kept on telling myself but I failed..

My heart begun to beat again faster this time..embarassing but I can't do anything about it..

"Tell me, what are you doing?" I asked stupidly..damn

"Hugging you" he answered in a lazy voice. Then in a swift motion he's on the window..

"I'll be back" he said, and he's gone.. I sigh in relief..my stupid heart went back to its normal pace..

He's gone and I felt empty...I sigh again..this time I am too confused.everything is too chaos to me..

I felt sick..not knowing anything and the only human that could answer me is him. Seconds passed and there he is, leaning on the wall and looking at me intently...now what? 

"What? Are you just going to stare at me?" I am now irritated by him.

"What do you want me to say?" he asked coldly.My forehead creased, puzzled by his sudden swithched of mood.

"I own an explanation. Inno told me that you're in a mission and you'll be here after a week or two but what are you doing here?" and why the sudden change of mood? I wanna add but I controlled myself, what a shameful thought!

"It's none of your business" he answered back. Now I AM TOTALLY PISSED-OFF!! In a split seconds I knocked him down on the floor.

"How dare you treating me like this!! You're the one who put me into this chaos! Bringing me into this world that I am not supposed to see!!!Making me HUMAN AGAIN!!!Giving me thousands of questions that you're the only person that could answer!!! and now you are giving me this "What do you want me to say!!?" crap!!!" I was out of breath then gasped as he touched my cheek, noticing that I was already crying..damn!! I-I am REALLY CRYING!!! Holy miracle!!!

"Devon I need to stop telling you what happened to your past, it shoul be 'you' that will remember everything, you have an ability to put memories to someone else and  you were unaware of that ability before, and we don't still know if you can do that to yourself" 

Shocked by his revelation about my ability, of course I know I have that kind of power but can I do it to myself?. I looked at him blankly and went back to my bed. I felt cold and lost. I don't know what to say or rather do after what he made me realize, what if all those blurred memories I had seen were just implanted memories I tried to make because secretly I ve been wishing to have a family, a place where I truly belong.

"Devon, I don't want you to doubt those memories you remembered, it was all real. I have to do this, you are human and your memory will return in time..." breaking his silence as he stood in front of me. I did't look at him and tried to ignore him.

"Next week will be the start of your new life, Devon." 

then he was gone...nest week ..who is he to tell those things to me..I I can't even remember his name...of who he really is to me..if he is really my husband...

how can I start living a new life if right now I am already doubting myself.....................