Darkness Remains ( Vampire Academy Fanfict )

16 - Safety first

White bright walls, uncomfortable beds, a dozen machines beeping, and something really stings in my arm when I move. Can you guess where I am?

Of course, in a hospital. Again.

Can this ever stop?

Before I woke up I was sucked into my best friends head. The mixture of emotions swirling through her is what sucked me in and my state of course, unconscious.

Fear, anger and hope danced through her as she was getting ready to break in a run to the hospital, but was held back by her other guardians and one more that was in my place, thank them. She just found out what happened and she wasn't happy with what she heard.

"I order you to let me go. I need to see her. I need to see for my own. She wouldn't leave me like that. She would never do such a thing." Her voice was bearably stable, she was so angry about what I did but just as scared of why I did it and if I'd be okay.

Oh Rose, why would you do this?

I wanted to wake up and run to her tell her what happened, but if I do then she would block me out and she'd be the one in the hospital and Moroi society do not need a queen with mental illness. Is that how I saw what's happening to me? Am I mentally ill? No not like that, more like Spirit's side affect.

Lissa was now heading to the hospital trying to stay as calm as she can and not run to me. And she was doing a great job with that.

If I were in her shoes and she was in my place, I'd already have been there before they could blink and on the way there I would have knocked someone out. I don't know how she was going it, with all that emotion, she was still calm. Well that's what she showed everyone, but she couldn't foul me.

I then felt a light touch on my hand and a scent that I'd recognize anywhere. That's what brought me back in my own body. The soft voice that always calmed me was doing its job again. But the hurt in it made my heart break.

"Roza, please, please don't leave me. Open those beautiful eyes and let me see those beautiful orbs. We have to fight this together. I'm so mad at you for what you did, for not telling me about the darkness. You can't do it by yourself. You can't end it neither. You have to open up to us, to me, to Lissa. Tell us what's wrong, we will find a way out. You can't fix everything by yourself." He was silent for a second then he inhaled a deep breath and continued. "Just wake up, please, don't leave me. I don't know what I'd do without you in my life. It would break me. I can't lose a part of me if that part of me is you." I was trying so hard to open my eyes but I couldn't, well at first. The only thing I managed was to twitch my fingers around his, as he gasped.

"Roza?" I tried and tried and then my eyes slowly opened. Reveling the light of the sun and the brightness of the white walls made me temporary blind closing my eyes again. But then it got easier.

"I'm not le-leaving you co-comrade." I'm here, you shouldn't worry about me, worry about the spirit. Or the angry Queen that's approaching to this room. And she will burst in in, "Three, two, on-"

I was cut of by the door swinging open and revealing a pissed off Queen, too much for the 'calm' Queen that she was before.

"What were you thinking?!" She yelled letting all her emotions run wild, which there was the old friend I haven't seen in a while, sense the sarcasm. It was a little darkness which I'm sure Lissa would handle but if it gets out of hand I'd end up hurting again.

"Close the door your majesty, I have a story to tell." I ordered her in a impolite way hoping that it would put some of the darkness in its place. And it worked.