Diary Of A Lost Cause

Blood relations decapitated.

Dear diary
Today marks the 5th of may 2017.

And on this day I've gotten the biggest scare of my life. I'm frightened for my farther, let's begin at where this all started.

It's been a normal day at school, laughing with friends and sharing lunches, even hugging someone who was a little down at some point.

It was time for me to leave school as the rest of my friends went to 4th period, I went to the front office of my school and gave them my details being able to leave the schools doors. Walking down the long hill my music blaring loudly through my head phones.

I get to the bus stop and see a long time crush of mine, we spoke a little laughing and chattering back and forth, as we didn't speak much to begin with it was something out of the ordinary to laugh with her. She was possibly my size and she had the most beautiful porcelain shade to her skin.

A few moments later the bus arrived and we parted, I sat on the bottom deck and she moved upward. My music blared through my headphones until my stop.

I got off and began walking to my house , I had messaged my dad earlier to let him know I'd be home at a certain time.

Walking through my front door me and my farther shared some jokes and puns before I went upstairs,I came back down and spent an hour on the sofa on my phone. Occasionally telling my dad the time.

We left for the doctors and we all walked down, it was mostly silent but we spoke a little, when we arrived we sat in a waiting room for roughly 10 minutes before a kind lady stepped out an called on us we walked into her office and gave her the urine samples that were done earlier that day, she tested them and gave me my results, completely normal. And what she said to my farther made my heart shudder.

She told him that she had found quite a bit of blood tracing in his urine, he then looked at me with a funny 'oh no ' look. But deep down I felt it hit him. My dad is a drinker, he will have a few can every night. Not to the point of drunken stupidity, but as a casual relaxant.

My dad also smokes, it terrify a me to think that he is the last and only parent I truly have, and he could be taken away at any moment.