Déjà Vu

CHYNNA "Selfish" •Chapter 20•

I woke up this Morning Feeling Great..... As I looked at myself in the mirror I started to realize..... Ali is fcukin trippin.... I look bomb as fcuk and my dick riding skills are off the charts no questions about it... but What tf was I thinking to keep chasing him after he keeps pulling these lil disappearing acts. The other day I blew his fone up all day with no answer... no call backs......or text. He been a lil too distant towards me lately. At first it bothered me a tiny bit but I always had Tevin to make those sad Moments better. In the beginning of The relationship....I used to feel guilty that I still had sex with Tevin. But nites when we argued or he wouldnt come to see me... To Tevin I would go. Tevin is my Ex, no matter what we went through or how many relationships we got in.... we still managed to never let each other go. I have a boyfriend and he's currently with some girl name Mona. He says he fcuks with her but she just irritating as fcuk. Tevin Knows about Ali but I could never let Ali find out about Tevin. I mean Tevin isn't going anywhere but Ali is where I eventually want to be. Ali blows me but he still such a good look... he has his shit in order and Tevin does way more fcuked up shit. I know it sounds weird and I sound crazy but I love in a different way. I really have love for both && right now I dnt see a reason to give up either. Im Selfish

Tevin loved when my boyfriends acted out becuz that just meant it was more time for him. He always let me kno that he loved spending time with me vs his other bvtches.... he said they all gave him headaches && nagged too much. This new girl Mona was bossy... she would constantly call him when he was with me and he would always feed her some bullshit and she would eat it up like dog food... this bitch was so stupid for him.... sometimes it kinda disgusted me how green she was for this nigguh. Tevin didnt know it... but I always did my research on his bvtches and I knew a lil more about her then he thought I knew... I knew where the bvtch stayed.... where she worked and shopped......alongside a few other things but that was for my own purposes. Tevin may not be mines by title but he was mines at heart. Its crazy how I would go to war for this man. Dnt get it confused thou becuz, there is also times when I gave him my ass to kiss when he did some shit that didnt sit right with me. He knows how I get... but I still could never just turn my back on him...

After waiting for wat seems like forever... I finally got a text from Ali sayin "We need to talk" for a minute I pondered on wether Or not I should text back but I did and asked "about what?" But he just replied "see you later" and never texted back. He was up to something... I just didnt kno what yet... I would soon find out