Déjà Vu

ALANA "Frustrated" •Chapter 32•

I walked sooo much this week.... I even had sex one time but it felt like this little boy was takin his time to come out. I was so ready to get this load off my back... I was in pain every night for the past few nites. I wanted to make sure I had sum last minute things before he came so I woke Brandon up and told him we needed to make a trip to target. He was dragging but we made it out the door in the next 30 mins. After walkin around target and grabbing two of everything Im pretty sure I had at home.. our last aisle was around the baby wipes. As I stood there grabbin a few items, I heard a couple of familiar voices in the aisle next to mines

Girl #1: why are you even in this aisle? Do you have something you want to tell me🤔😂💁🏽

Girl #2: Bvtchh puuhhlleeze I just came to get my baby oil gel to keep my skin soft and my baby wipes to keep my ass clean after a nice shit

As I turned the corner I seen Kennedi and Phoenix.... I wonder why I kept bumpin into Phoenix this was the second time in a few weeks.... before that I havent seen the girls in forever. Before I could speak to either of them I heard Brandon say "Wossop Kennedi" and she turned her head like she had seen a ghost but then returned the friendly gesture and in my mind Im wondering how tf they knew each other....

Kennedi: oh hey wossop Black && Hi Alana

Brandon: How you kno my babymother?

Kennedi: back from sometime ago we use to kool it

Brandon: Hey Phoenix (Real dry)

Phoenix: Hey (Even drier)

Him and Kennedi greeting was way to Cordial and nice for me so I'm betting money he use to fuck with Phoenix or something becuz the way they spoke gave it all away.... if I find out they used to deal with each other its going to piss me off because I dnt do any of my friends left overs

Brandon: it was nice seeing yall

Kennedi: yea you too and congrats you guys

Brandon & Me: Thank you

After we left out the store and got in the car, I had to get to the bottom of this. It was blowing me every step of the way thru target because I wanted to dig in his shit in there But I didn't want the girls to come across us again and hear us talking and think I'm insecure when I just really wanna get to the bottom line of this situation.

Me: so how do you know them?

Brandon: They just some friends from back in the day

Me: Dnt lie to me

Brandon: how you figure somebody lying to yu?

Me: so which one did you fcuk?

Brandon: what you on rite now?

Me: no the question is what type of friendly shit you on rite now?...so I would appreciate if you just be real and answer the question...

Brandon: Phoenix

Me: I knew it... yall greeted each other real dry and wouldn't look each other in the eyes... is this the girl that really wanted to be in a relationship widd you... that we've talked about before?

Brandon: yea but why does that matter?

Me: becuz we all use to be friends until they got mad at me over some stupid shit. I've always told you how I felt about dealing with one of my friends Ex's and now my baby father is my Old Friend, Ex-boyfriend.

Brandon: I never said we was together

Me: but she wanted to be with you

That was the last thing said before we rode home in complete silence. I didnt really have anything to say to him...until later on that nite when I felt this extreme rush and water started gushing out on my bed as if I was pissing a waterfall. My water had broke😩

It was finally time to push and it was so excruciating... I was so frustrated this shit hurt so fcukin bad,but the beautiful blessing that came from this pain was so real it was such beautiful moment....Brandon && my Mom stuck it out with me the whole entire time. I called Reese once before I started pushing and he said he would be up here as soon as he dropped Khloe off. After pushing out this lil chubby baby I was drained of everything I had in Me. I looked fcukin horrible and pictures were the last thing I wanted to take. My baby was healthy and had all his Fingers and toes. This moment is so precious but Im not sure if I could go through it twice. I think this is it for Me. Brandon started crying, he was so happy. I've never seen him cry before until now.

After being on a high for so long its always a lil bump in the road that comes a long and try to kill your happiness... I wasn't too thrill to find out Brandon use to smash Phoenix and this threw me off becuz this use to be my whole friend and I never knew one thing about this... one thing was for sure she was good at hiding who she fcuked...