Déjà Vu

HARLEM "Bad Habits" •Chapter 15•

When I opened up the door Kennedi was sitting in the living room on the couch lookin at the lastest episode of her Lil show Queen Sugar...She looked back at me for all of two seconds && then turned her head back into the Television direction.... that means she was pissed becuz Any time she see's me she always smiles her ass off no matter where we at or who we with... no smiles today... I walked closer to the couch before I touched her....

Kennedi: What do Yu want Harlem?

Me: How You feeling?

Kennedi: Why does it matter to you?

Me: fcuk Yu mean why does it matter to me?

Kennedi: Harlem Yu been gone for an whole entire week havent called and havent cared!!! But now Tonite yu wanna kno how Im feelin🗣 Why Do Yu care?🤔

I took my jacket off, Sat rite next to her on the couch and grabbed her cheeks with one hand......

Me: Listen Kennedi.... I kno You think Im on some wild shit.... you prolly think Im cheating && I dont fcuk with you becuz I've been gone all week... but thats not the fcukin case... I had to get out your way for a lil while becuz Yu was seemin like I was fcukin widd yur mood... I kno Yu thinkin Jade Somebody... but that was long ago and will neva ever ever be again.. I fcuk Widd you... I don't know how many times I gotta say that shit... I dont do this with females... I dont get comfortable I dont stay long I never care that much... I don't even kno how to really even tell you this shit... but I love you... I tried the not giving a fcuk shit and it works perfect with everybody else but that shit don't work widd you...I can not forget you that easy Kennedi.... so can you take it down from a 100 to like 50....

Kennedi: I love you too but The fact that you feel You need space from me when you feeling a certain type of way is crazy why not just address the situation at hand then decide if you wanna leave... and trust me I know how yu feel... I've been trying to erase you every since you left I was over it... nobody ignores me && get affection frm me at the same time.... but it blew the shit outta me that I woke up actually missing your ugly ass every fcukin morning.... ugghh && Im not gonna lie it crossed my mind that you could have been with another female... but even if you were you wouldnt ever tell me

Me: But thats the thing doe I wasnt no where near another female && I put that on everything...

Kennedi: Harlem I don't kno what vibe you get from me... but I dont wanna argue with you... im tired of arguing... the stupid shit with nigguhs selling dreams and the o'so famous line... " its something about you....you just different" Every female comes with a vagina and can be replace...Im investing my time, my presence && a whole lot more into You... Im not tryna get fcuked over.... I dont have time to keep rebuilding myself...

Me: Im not perfect neva have been but I will to try to keep you as happy as I can to the best of my ability....

Kennedi: Yu just apologizing becuz You miss the sex...

Me: shiddd I do miss that bomb ass sex but I came back for my baby... I miss Yur lil ass spazzin on me then kissing me down😌

Kennedi: I miss Yur wild ass doin nasty shit any && every where

Me: Yu be widd the shits😉

Kennedi: Yu kno I do😜 Im with the shits rite now...

Me: Lets go get in the shower & finish everywhere in here

Kennedi: 💁🏽C'mon

After I burnt Kennedi lil ass Up... we watched movie && dozed off.... It felt bomb as shit to be laying back up under her curves... this soft ass body was all me && this ass was gon foreva be my pillow...Kennedi Prolly think im bull shittin widd her....and think my whole apology was to get back in but I was serious as shit... I'm completely fine with the way things are... I like having a girl the shit keep me outta a lot of bullshit... && its a thrill to blow this cash on somebody else other than myself && my family. Im just goin have to prove to her lil ass erryday that this shit is real.... 2ma when We get up Ima do something with her....