My days have been moving so slow since I left the hospital. Mehki has been doing everything in his power to keep a smile on my face and nothing works for long.... but he tries and I love him for it. My heart just feels so fcuked up... I've never felt a pain like this before... not just one but two holes in my heart. I feel like I've been shot and the rip will never heal, this shit hurts so bad. I know Mehki is hurt as well and I should be checking on him too but my mind is so bottled. Who would do some cruel shit like this and just keep going. What if I died?... I just keep replaying that day over and over and over again in my mind trying to remember anything I can.... everything comes up blank. All I can remember is Kennedy screaming my name && the look on Mehki face before passing out..... They were devastated && her screech was so horrifying that I can still hear the piercing pain in her heart when I hit the ground... I prayed every nite that I would wake up from this ongoing nightmare && that all over this would just be fake... but every morning I wake up with these ugly scars as a reminded that my babies are gone and never coming back.....this shit sucks sooo bad. Nothing will ever unbreak my heart. After taking a shower this morning... I just closed the blinds,cut the TV completely off, switched my cell phone on do not disturb and curled back in my bed... I didnt want to eat.... I didnt wanna talk and I didnt want to see anyone. Mehki was already up and out the door by time I woke up... this I knew because he only moves his charger out of the socket when he steps out... other than that... that charger will be in the same socket forever... I thought I was a lil over the top with the OCD but he is crazy with it. But I kno his crazy ass like a Book. I've never been so in tune with someone like this before and sometimes it freaks me out. Im so use to carrying nigguhs through Good or bad times... that it feels weird to have someone stick it out with me through a rough patch in my life. As soon as I shut my eyes I heard the door slam shut && I just knew that Mehki was back.... After walking around for about 20 mins he finally busted in the door with this sad look on his face......
Me: Bae wats wrong?
Mehki: Kennedy just called me she said She been calling You all morning but Yur fone going str8 to voicemail.. and to tell you that you need to get up to the hospital... Kena is Real sick.
Me: Bae did she say anything else?
Mehki: nah but she told me wat Hospital just get dressed...
After we got in the hospital I asked for Kena Room && once I got down the hall I saw Kennedy standing outside her door breaking down fcukin crying... I couldn't help but to break down myself becuz now my mind was all over the place....
Me: Kennedy wats going on?
Kennedy: Kena only has seven months left to live....
Me: noooo noooo noooo noooo this is not right... it cant be right......
Kennedy: She's asleep right now but she doesnt look too good right now... she said she was fine and then the next min she felt flustered && her sickness took over from there on out
Me: This just can't be happening... not to my friend I love her so much, she's a great person why is this happening to her???
Kennedy: && Chey just had her son.... she's here too...
Me: this is too much for me...
Kennedy: I dont even really kno how to feel becuz one is here celebrating life && our other friend is here battling for her life... Phe this is sooooo fcuked up... I don't kno....this hurts a lotttttt....
Me: I dont kno if Im in the right space to go see Chey yet... Dats gonna be so so so hard for me
Kennedy && I can totally understand that coming from your stand point rite now... But I do need you to be a lil strong for Kena Plzzzz Phoenix... she needs us so much rite now...
Phoenix: I gotta go talk to Mehki rite quick I'll be rite back....
After stepping back around the lobby waiting area, Mehki just seen my eyes flooded with tears.....
Mehki: Bae what happened?
Me: its not fair Mehki She such a good person she doesnt deserve this...
Mehki: whats up?
Me: the doctor says She has seven months to live
Mehki: wtf.... I wasnt expecting this.... listen Bae Yu gotta pray on it... you cant let a doctor diagnostic control your faith... I promise I'll stick by yall side and do anything I can but I need you to stop crying You already stressed out from one situation I need you to slow down and breathe.... I dont need you in one of these rooms too... We gon figure something out I promise...
Me: alrite I promise to calm down but I really dont know
How to handle this right now
Mehki I dont😩
Mehki just grabbed me up and Hugged me really tight.... I felt like a load was released off my shoulders. I just could not figure out why all of this was happening but I just knew I couldnt keep questioning God.....I knew nothing could make this better but the things Mehki just said made me feel like everything would be alright.
Kena woke up about a hour after we got to the hospitol but she seemed to be in an unusual mood it wasnt down and it wasnt happy it was nonchalant and way too excepting of the situation... I know
She doesnt talk about it alot but maybe she just may be over the sickness... I think she's mentally giving up... I need her to be strong so we can beat this thing... its Sooo possible... we can find the best doctors and centers... she needs to beat this..... I love her way too much.. I cant afford to lose another close person I love.
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Déjà Vu
FanfictionIf What They say is True, What Goes around, Comes back Around.... Then this Sequel to Karma is Me, is Nothing but the Truth! We've been Here, We've done this, Who Run this? Everything Around The Girls is Falling Apart right after they found their Kn...
