True Love. (A Carter Reynolds Story)

Chapter 8

CHAPTER 8:

That night thousands of thoughts were running through my mind. "Should I tell Carter? Should I tell Maya? What should I do?" My mind kept wondering around. I decided not to over think it and just went to bed.

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It's 7:30 am and I look like shit. Maya wasn't awake yet so I decided to jump in the shower. About 20 minutes later I got out and there I saw Maya beaming with joy.

"I get to see Matt today! I'm so excited! He'll defiantly notice me. We've known each other since first grade." she babbled on and on and on. Then she just.. Stopped. She concentrated on me for a long while. Just staring at me like I was some freak. I didn't know what it was but she just shook her head and went on. She looked gorgeous, as always. Her long brown hair was perfectly curled, she wore a floral miniskirt, a pink long sleeve shirt, sandals and a white scarf. I was so jealous of her and her glowing green eyes. Every boy was attracted to her. Never me.

I straightened my medium length hair and also wore a floral skirt. I decided to go with a baby blue mid sleeve shirt, a white beanie, and my white chucks. Maya smiled and said I looked beautiful. I shook my head in disagreement and then put on all my bangle bracelets. Maya asked me why I wore so many, "obviously for fashion," I replied softly. She rolled her eyes then giggled.

I don't know why I was in such a glum mood. I was getting to see Carter and after last night I thought it would go pretty well today. But thoughts were just rushing through my head. I couldn't control them. I think Maya noticed because she asked me if I was going to be sick. I felt like it. I was hyperventilating and then got light headed. I started crying. Maya was panicking. After about 5 minutes of that I stopped. Maya looked like she was also about to cry.

"Are you okay? What happened?"

Here came the tears again.. "I'm falling in love with someone I'll NEVER be able to have, and if I do get Carter it'll just be like hug, picture, then leave. My life will be complete but I'll be bawling because I was in the arms of the guy I truly love. The only one I love to be honest with you." I couldn't help from crying. The look on Maya's face made it even worse. She turned red and started to tear up, she held them back though.

"Oh Haylei, don't be sad. Carter loves you. From what you told me your date seemed like it went perfectly. He kissed you goodbye after the first date. He loves you Haylei. The way he looked at you was so sweet, he would take a bullet for you." I stared at Maya for awhile, I didn't shake my head in disagreement this time, I nodded slowly. This actually meant something to me. After all this it was only 8:00 am. We had 10 more hours until Magcon. We went down to the lobby to get breakfast and there I saw Carter.

"No, please no." I whined. "You love him!" Maya gritted her teeth. "I know but please after what happened." I tugged on her arm. "Fine." she growled.

We went back upstairs and said we'd wait until 9:00. That's when something awful happened.

"What happened earlier? I also know your lying about the bracelets. What's really going on?" Maya sounded concerned but furious at the same time. I got teary eyed. "I cut." I said softly. Maya broke out into tears and was hugging me. "Why would you do this to yourself? You're my best friend. I can't lose you. I wouldn't be anywhere in life if it weren't for you." She stopped crying and collected herself to do what she did..

She pushed up my bangles and cried over my scars. It was the saddest thing I've ever experienced in my life, and I was 15 years old!

I grabbed her hand and spoke softly to her. "Maya," I paused, "I wouldn't dare give up on you." She started crying. "Carter. Haylei! Carter!" she screamed at me. "WHAT ABOUT CARTER?" I ignored her tone because I knew she was upset. "Everything will be okay, I promise Maya." I said kindly. She finally calmed down.

It was now 9:00 so we headed down for breakfast. Once we finished we went up to the hotel room. Maya told me she was going to go for a walk around the hotel and said she'd be back in about 45 minutes. During that time I studied myself in the mirror. Wondering how anyone could want this. I walked away from the mirror and laid on my bed. I put in my earbuds and started listening to All Of Me. I started crying.

"I'm so soft. Why do I cry so much?"

I ended up falling back asleep and I was peaceful again. I wasn't ready for today. Not yet...