Entry: Mateo
May 29th, 2014
Ayo raped her. She thinks it's not rape but it is. I wanna kill him. He shouldn't be doing that to my future wife. Ayo Raped her. And all I could do was watch. I hate seeing her hurt or crying. It doesn't even bother me if she throws my flowers away. It just makes me feel good that she acknowledges the flowers.
Ayo raped her. It's all I could think about. But I did catch glimpses of her pussy and man when I hit that, there ain't gon be no more tomorrow. Ayo's been getting on my nerves lately. I know I haven't been talking but that's for personal reasons. My mom died a couple months ago. She was the one person I loved. I feel lost without her. I know Ima mommas boy but her grub be good asf. You know how much I love food. Who made food? I wanna know.
Ayo been talking with our manger saying some shit like 'he's not working hard enough' or 'why is he never talking' and 'what happened to my bestfriend'. But I just don't wanna tell him shit.
The manger talked to me today and he said if I don't step it up, I gotta find a different manger. He said he was tired of my bullshit. Missing interviews and shit. But I need this job. Dancing and making music is my life now. It's tiring but it's worth it.
But Vanna is also my life now. I just love her so much. She's gonna be mine one day, and Ayo can't stop that. I went to their house again and kept one of her underwear. I left another vase of flowers but this time I also put rose petals on the ground everywhere.
Now on to Ayo. I've pretty much known him my whole life. All the way back to jerkin days. But we didn't start taking our dancing seriously until I was 16-17 and he was 19-20. People used to say we look and act like brothers. And sometimes I do question it. Like we both got same color skin, big lips.
But I don't think Ayo's ever questioned it. Ayo doesn't have a mom, he has a dad only. He told me his mom ran away or sum cuz she was crazy. I told him my dad died at a young age trying to save a little girl from getting shot.
I know, my life has gone to shit. I don't have any parents now or family members. I live by myself everyday with my small dog. I named him lil boat. He got dark hair and I dyed some parts of his hair red. He also like trapping to music with me.
But this marriage with them needs to stop. I can treat her so much better. And her and Ayo are 4 years apart, she only a year younger than me.
If Ayo has her, I gotta do sum to stop it. I called the police. But I like changed my voice or sum cuz what if I get caught snitching on Ayo?
"9-1-1 what's your emergency?"
"Uhh yes I would like to report a rape." I say with some weird accent.
"Ok sir what are the names?"
"A dude named Ayleo Bowles raped his wife, Vannalyah Jackson-lai or Vannalyah Bowles."
"Ok and when did this happen?"
"A couple weeks ago, I heard screaming from the house but I was kinda scared to go over. I don't know why I wanted to call until now."
"Ok thank you sir and what's your name?"
"I'd rather keep anonymous. "
I say goodbye and end the call. You could go to jail for 25 years for rape. I just hope the judge say that he gon be guilty. And then Vanna will come running into my arms.
Just a smalllll plan to have my future wife. Sorry Ayo. But not really.
Working on next chapter right now....
Unicorn gang 🦄🦄
