Verging

Chapter 11

     I woke up still in bed exactly where I was left after the hell I went thru last night. This morning wasn't like always I used to always get up to go to the bathroom, but this time I didn't even feel a drop of liquid in my bladder. The one and only reason I got up was to see what was left of me from last night. I stand in front of the bathroom mirror and look at what that man did to me. I had dried blood from my nose to my neck, I guess it never stoped bleeding last night. Both my eyes are black I honestly don't know how I'm seeing myself right now.I had bruised and cut cheeks. My hair was a mess and my head hurt more than I think it should. I put my fingers between my hair and feel a liquid on my scalp. It was blood, but the question was how did that even get there. I cplit my hair to the part of the scalp where it hurt and there was an opening in my scalp and part of my hair was missing. He pulled out my hair. I continued to look down at my torso there was indigos and deep purples everywhere. I couldn't walk right my knees had no more power and I decided to do the only thing that would sedate this mental and physical pain.

     I walked over to my makeup bag and thru everything on the floor. Once everything was on the floor a blade was the last thing to drop. The noise it made once it fell on the tile floor started to sooth me. I picked it up and almost falling but this bathroom had no bad memories it was the bedroom that did. I walked unbalanced to the bedroom and falling against the bed and landed on the floor with my back against the bed. I grabbed the blade and cut myself more that once, I reopened the door to self-harm. I was already harmed more that anyone should be and there was nothing I could do about it. For the 5th time in the past 10 minutes I cut myself. The blade slowly slid open my skin and I could breathe again, it was almost like every new opening on my skin would take a breathe and maybe just maybe relax and forget about all that had happened. Cutting was my drug to everything. Especially for the hell I went thru last night. But the only think it couldn't take was the memory.

     I was woken up by a knock on the door. More like a pound, but I wasn't going to unlock it if it was Ben.

"Who is it?" I managed to say with a dry throat and a barely audible voice.

"Mad- please open the door I know your mad but you haven't picked up my calls and I just couldn't-" Michael was cut off by me crawling to the door and putting my weight on the handle and lifting my self up and unlocking it. Michael ran in and all I could say was, "Stop don't touch me" because my back was faced to him and all I had was a blanket around me and he couldn't see what his stepfather had done to me. I sat back down in a corner facing his way and when he say my face. The face he said he loved was torn and almost dead. He was shocked, dried blood all over the place and I got back up and I uncovered my body from the blanket. Letting him see my nude body that was taken advantage of. He dropped his mouth open and with a hand reached out to touch my bare skin I moved away and I knew what he wad seeing. He was seeing a body that looked dead and bruised and didn't know how it survived from what had happened and blood just all the blood the body had dropped from her skin. He was speechless. I could see all the questions he wanted to ask but he didn't have words.

"Ben gave me a shot and I was paralyzed. He raped me, got angry because I didn't enjoy it and beat me. I broke our promise if you were wondering." I showed him the arm full of blood and scars. He closed his mouth and frowned.

"What- why did this happen ?" He finally said I gently shrugged, any movement or my body hurt I felt like dieing. I began to cry finally letting every thing out and falling on the floor. My wish of dieing felt like happened, all I could see is black.

Michael's POV

     I regretted everything I had done these past few days. I've fallen in love with Madeleine but I can't be with her. The more were together the deeper we fall and I can't let her get hurt. I had to talk to Maddy so we can end our feelings towards eachother. I loved her but she needed this, I was coming to an end and I couldn't let her get hurt anymore.

      I walked into the house and I heard my mother having another fight with Ben. I ignored it, I knew he wouldn't touch her or she touch him. I finally reached Maddy's and knocked. I always thought of Madeleine and to call her Maddy but it always came out as Madeleine but my thoughts kept her as Maddy. After no response I knocked louder and tried to open the door and realised it was locked. I was pounding the door now.

"Mad- please open the door I know your mad but you haven't picked up my calls and I just couldn't-" I was cut off by her unlocking the door. I immediately opened it and saw her wrapped around a blanket and her back facing me. I was going to hug her and kiss her.

"Stop don't touch me" she said we had no emotion in her voice she just sounded tired. Had I caused her this ? My thoughts were interrupted by her sitting down and seeing her face. Was I seeing a spirit of the after life. She had dried blood all over her. I just couldn't see this but the she got back up and dropped the blanket. I dropped my mouth when I saw her body was so bruised and cut. What the fuck had happened ! I tried to say something but there was no more voice inside of me I lost it. Seeing her perfect body like this, I knew someone had did this to her and she couldn't hold it in any more I wanted to grab her and hug her and be there for her but I couldn't. I would never be able to have that position in my life. She realized I had no word and she answered my questions without even asking them.

"Ben gave me a shot and I was paralyzed. He raped me, got angry because I didn't enjoy it and beat me. I broke our promise if you were wondering." She then showed me her arm and there was cuts all over it. Her thick blood dripping down from the openings in her arms. I was disappointed she did this but I understand she had no choice she needed to breathe, exactly how I felt when I used to cut. I needed to breathe for the last time. I realized she had said Ben a couple seconds later. Ben had done this, I don't care what his reason was for doing this I am going to kill him with my bare hands. I want his neck inbetween my hands. I want him to suffer as much as he's made not only Madeleine, but my mother and I. What reason did this poor angel have to get almost murdered.

"What- why did this happen?" was the last thing I said before she just let it all out and cried not like any cry. She cried for her life, she cried with so much anger inside of her and I knew she wanted him dead. She fell on the floor taking me out of shock. There she layed with no movement and that's when I realized she needed help.