A.M. (A Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter Sixty Five

Niall's P.O.V.

My eyes landed on the small knife gripped in Darcy's hand and suddenly the I was frozen when the world around me was still in motion. I was unable to move, unable to shake myself from the frozen guilt inside my heart.

How stupid could have I been, to leave her alone and go?

"Niall, you left me alone" she sobbed, her voice ragged from all the crying.

I was rooted to the spot as she dropped the knife on the floor and it clanged against the tiles, the sound making me wince inside. I was unable to move as I saw her trying to stand up and failing. Finally, after a long minute, I reached out my hand. My hand found hers and I pulled her closer to me. My eyes holding hers, I didn't dare to break the eye contact.

As my body pressed against hers, for a second there was nothing but the pleasant feeling of her body against mine. But soon it was replaced by guilt. I tried to show her how sorry I am without using my words. As I looked into her eyes, all I could see was pain and fear. All because of me.

Now, this minute, this moment, I swear that I will do anything to keep her safe. Anything to bring her back to normal, anything for her to be brave again, anything to heal her wounds. I will give my life to her, my heart, my soul, my everything, to love and treat her as she deserves.

I softly press my lips against her temple and she relaxes into me. I hear footsteps thudding away and realize that Louis is walking away from us. I wipe my thumb under her eyes and she flutters her eyes close.

"Come on. Let's get you to bed" I whisper and she nods mutely as she follows me inside her room. Once we sit down on her bed, I take her into my arms again, holding her against my chest as she leans into me. I rock her body along with mine in a comforting manner and wait until her breathing is back to normal again.

Louis walks in silently after knocking on the door. He brings in a cup of water and places it on the nightstand for which I'm grateful. He walks out discreetly and closes the door behind him.

"I'm sorry" I whisper into her hair. She nods her head but says nothing while my hands continue to stroke her hair. "Please don't leave me alone again" she pleas and my heart breaks once again but I was holding on just for her. I take her face into my hands and look into her eyes, "I'm sorry, love, I'm really sorry. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did. I just panicked" I told her, looking into her eyes so that she could understand how sincere my apology was.

"Niall" she breathed and I nodded my head, signalling her to go on, "What happened?" her voice was soft.

I looked at her tired eyes, her tear stained cheek, her feather like body barely holding all the emotions in. I decided not to tell her, for now. I don't want her scared then she already is right now.

"Nothing sweet heart. Nothing you have to worry about right now. I'm really sorry for leaving you alone again. I hope you can forgive me" I whisper against her lips, trying to change the subject.

She nods her head as she closes her eyes in the pleasant feeling of my lips against hers. She pulls almost instantly and gives me a quizzical expression. "Then why were so panicked?" she asks me again and I shake my head. She sure is hard to distract.

I already hid the truth from her which has resulted her in this state. A part of my mind reasons that this is not exactly good idea to hide the truth from her again. But she is really scared of Gregg. My body trembles at the thought, how much he must've tortured her that she despises being left alone? So, for now, I won't tell her. Until I figure out a way from Gregg, I tell myself that I will keep her safe but this time I really really will. I will give my life to keep her safe. So, it is better that she doesn't know about the message now.