A.M. (A Niall Horan Fanfic)

Chapter Fifty Five

Harry's P.O.V.

After all those years, looking into the blue eyes filled with friendship, love and affection, I was terrified to see the change in his wild eyes. His grip on my neck almost felt numb compared to the pained look he was giving me. My hands autmatically flew to his hands wrapped around my neck. I was choking on my own guilt more than he was choking me.

I was numbly aware of Louis clawing at Niall's back to get him off of me but he wouldn't budge.

Niall is right. It is my fault that Darcy is not here right now. It is my fault that they kidnapped her. I thought he was just bluffing. I didn't know that this would become this serious.

I can't hold his gaze. I feel like withering from inside, when he is looking at me like that-like he couldn't trust me anymore. The thought washes over me almost like a wave and I realize that I'm not gasping for air like I'm supposed to. And I also realize that he is not choking me like he planned but just wrapped his fingers around my throat in a threatening way. Louis stopped trying to get Niall off of me when he saw that I was not struggling anymore. I'm just pinned to the ground under his weight and crushing beneath his disappointment in me.

I try to speak, try to tell him that I'm sorry and that I would do anything to find Darcy, to get her back. But I just can't find the words.

He sits up straight suddenly, withdrawing his hands from around my neck and balances himself on his knees. His right hand curls into a fist and he raises it into the air. I brace myself for the blow, thinking that it will be teeny bit better if I just recieve a punch from him.

But the punch never comes. He shoves me hard on my shoulder and the next second he is running. I see Louis running behind him. Fortunately, Niall is not fast enough for Louis and Louis grabs Niall's shirt sleeve and yanks on it hard to make him stop. I was pretty much sure that he will not stop. But he halts and spins around to face Louis.

I push myself off the ground but I don't bother to dust the dirt off my clothes. I walk over to them catiously because I don't want to trigger the crazy side of Niall again, the side which is desperate to find Darcy and the side which probably will never trust me anymore. I'm more pissed at myself that he can be pissed at me. My one stupid mistake, is costing Darcy her life. I silently vow that I'm never going to stop till I find her, till she is safe in Niall's arms.

"Where are you going?" Louis questions Niall, his grip still firm on his shirt sleeve. Niall looks away ignoring his question. But after a few seconds later, he changes his decision and looks back at Louis.

"I'm going to find Jacob" he answered Louis.

"Do you know where he lives?" Louis decides to let go of his shirt but gently lays his hand on his shoulder, in a friendly gesture.

Niall jerks his head in a quick nod and starts walking away. He fishes his car keys out of his pant pockets when he reaches his car. Me and Louis trail behind and get into the car as soon as he unlocks it. He acknowledges us but doesn't say a word as he start the car and starts driving.

Edward's P.O.V.

"Get off my couch" Jacob snapped. I pretended not to hear him and continued surfing through the channels, one by one trying to find something to watch. He huffed in frustration and took two long strides to stand in front of the television.

I rolled my eyes dramatically and dropped the remote on the couch. I took out my phone to entertain myself instead.

"Why can't you just leave me the fuck alone, Edward? It is already fucked up enough that your mom and my dad got married. And now you and your mom want to fuck my life too. I'm sorry. I can't let you do that" He yells.