Complications(Adopted by Brendon Urie)

10. "Crushes, cops, and cut capillaries."

Honestly, I was terrified that Brendon wouldn't forgive me after what had happened. I was accused of selling illicit substances and assault, and was almost found guilty, but Madi, one of the girls who came up to me after I was slapped by Bridget had recorded the whole ordeal and I was set free with a warning and was suspended from school for a couple of days, with a couple of after school detentions mixed in there. It turns out that the girl who tripped me had planted the weed in my pocket, they found out that she was one of Bridget's friends who confessed to buying the weed off of a dealer. She was so desperate to not be arrested that even gave the police his name and phone number...

Eventually Brendon stopped his little hissy fit after we weren't fined and I was let off easy. As an apology we went out for ice cream with the crew, which comprised of FOB, Dallon, Kenny, Zac, and a couple more people. Even after a couple days from when I was beat up sometimes I'd start coughing up blood. And knowing my luck I just so happened to do it while we were out and kinda ruined the day, with me staining my clothes with a mixture of my blood, saliva, and a little bit of mucus. Brendon was also streaming so he caught it on camera for the entire fandom to see. A lot of people though that Brendon and everyone else were being insensitive jerks for laughing at me while I was dying, but in all honesty, I was trying to laugh as well.

After what I thought my coughing fit finished I started drinking some water, and then started coughing again, spraying water all over Pete, and when I finally finished my fit we decided it would be a better idea to go home since just about everyone in the store was staring at us. We decided to have a party on the weekend instead, I didn't feel like that's the best thing to do, throwing a party because I didn't get arrested, but Brendon felt really sorry for us leaving the ice cream shop early.

I was only suspended for a couple of days and when I came back, just about everyone was either terrified of me, or were congratulating me on getting Bridget out of school. I didn't know what happened to Bridget but Liz told me that I got her a two week suspension because she was bailed out of the juvenile detention, where she was only going to be there for a few months. All of the attention made my anxiety more crushing than it already was, at some points during the day it got so bad I threw up, and for some reason my medication wasn't helping, and everything was made worse when Loch decided to ignore me for the entire week for getting his girlfriend arrested. I became confused because he told me that he hated her, but was acting as if I'd murdered her after what happened, but I didn't question him and left him alone. I feel like the phrase 'live and let live' perfectly describes the relationship I had with Loch at that point in time. He didn't really like me, and I was confused and slightly uncomfortable around him, but regardless I still liked him. Instead of approaching him, I left him alone to wait until he seemed somewhat okay with me.

Liz and I had acquired a liking for each other over the time we spent together in class, while ditching, at lunch and after school. After a couple of days I started talking around her and she never stopped saying how adorable my voice was, which I completely disagreed with. My voice is naturally high and I sound really innocent, which, if you've been seeing what's been happening, is the complete opposite of what I am. It sometimes comes in handy when guilting people but that's it, and when I have the slightest bit of anxiety I start stuttering, which is really annoying. But even though I had all of those flaws she told me that it made me me, which I thought was way too sweet for Liz the goddess who will stab a bitch if anyone hurt her little child - which was me for some reason?

Somehow, somewhere deep in my mind where horrible thoughts, ideas, and feelings come from, I developed a crush for her. It wasn't as big as the one I had for Loch, but it was still noticeable whenever I was around her. I was constantly stuttering and my anxiety was horrific, almost making me want to throw up at times. I also had most of the other common crush symptoms that I don't need to go into. Rey convinced me to ask her out at school, so, being the weirdo that I was -and still am -, gave her a box of chocolates and asked her to come to my pool party that weekend as a date. And she said no.