it will be ok will it ?

Love sick!!

It has been six months, since josh passed.  Ruby is now eleven years.  We've both been suffering.  I've went through suicidal thought's, and even to the point to hurting myself.  I've lost my job, and even gave up on music.  I have to lie to ruby, every time I go out, I tell her that im going to work, when im actually going around to clubs to find someone new.  I have been talking to someone lately, her name is Jenna Black. I've even invited her to dinner tonight. I think that I might ask her to go to the movies, and dinner a different time.   I really enjoy hangout with her I have even told her that I am "Love sick",and bisexual.