Healing With Love (BxB/mpreg) [Hiatus]

Chapter Nineteen: Talking Again (Talking is Important in Any Relationship)

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Chapter Nineteen

Dhairya's P.O.V.

Kaelen pulled his hands away from me and I had to admit that it hurt a lot. I wanted to be with him, I really did, but I couldn't. If I did, I feel as if I was leeching off of him. He had everything that anybody could ever want, and I was just me. I could do anything at all. Sure, I was smart, but that didn't help anyone. There were plenty of other smart people in the world. Nothing made me unique and Kaelen deserved someone special.

My heart hurt and I could feel guilt fill up my stomach. I wanted to take back what I said earlier. I wanted to tell him that I would be his mate, but I couldn't. So, I just smiled and took a step backwards.

"Dhairya..."

"It's okay, I understand."

I gave him a small smile and turned around, walking to Darren. Darren smiled when he saw me coming and I smiled to. Sure, my heart hurt from what Kaelen was doing, but it was my fault. I should just deal with it, right? It was all my fault anyway.

I could deal with all this hurt now, and in the future Kaelen could have someone amazing by his side. That way, he could lead the pack with a strong individual by his side. He doesn't need me. He'll find someone better...
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"Dhairya, we need to talk. Actually, I need to talk. You don't have to if you don't want to, but will you please listen to me?"

Kaelen came to me with a sad look on my face and I knew I wouldn't be able to say no. I think that it was a small hope that I could be good enough for him that made me do it, but I nodded. Kaelen smiled softly at me and I, of course, being the weirdo I am, blushed.

"Dhairya, you know we are mates. You also believe that you aren't worth me. What if I told you that wasn't true? Do you want to know what I think about you?"

Kaelen stopped right there and I found myself feeling disappointed. I didn't understand why because I was the one who rejected him, in a way, right? Why would what he says affect me so much? I nodded, I really did want to hear what he had to say. I wanted his opinion, I really did. I think that I held his opinion so high, to the point where only my dad's could be any higher. But, I just met Kaelen, how would that be possible?

"Starting off, I didn't want to have a mate in the beginning. I thought that they would be a huge hassle and that they would get in the way of my future. But then I met you. I don't know why, but the first thing I thought of when I met you was simply Angel. You were my angel. Did you know that ever since you came into my life, I've been less serious about everything?

Vincent can tell you that before I met you, I would never run around the city. I would never go on hikes with my family. I would, however, go and have sex with different people everyday or drown myself in the work that I had."

I raised my hand hesitantly, blushing in embarrassment. Kaelen paused and looked at me before chuckling, causing my blush to grow even darker. I felt like I was back in school. Hand-raising was extremely popular, even through high school.

"Yes, Dhairya?"

"What is sex?"

"Uh...you don't know what sex is? Don't you learn that in school?"

I shook my head. I didn't learn what 'sex' was in school because I was apparently too young for it. I didn't know if sex was bad or not because I still don't know what it is.

"Oh...well, I'm not exactly sure that I want to tell you. Do you really, really want to know?"

"Yes please!"

"Well...sex, by definition is sexual contact between individuals involving penetration, especially the insertion of a man's erect penis into a woman's vagina, typically culminating in orgasm and the ejaculation of semen, but in the case of two men, it's slightly different."

I might have thought that I knew what embarrassment meant before, but I really didn't. I understood the gist of the meaning even though there were some words that I didn't know. If I asked, I would get an answer, but I'm not sure that I want to hear the answer. Maybe I'll learn them one day...just not today.

"Do you have any more questions on that? Actually, I'm pretty sure you do because you weren't taught any of it in school, were you? But, how about I teach you all of that another day, today, we can focus on my speech that I had made and somehow forgotten already. Oh well, the thing that I really need to say is that you, Dhairya, are the most important person in my life.

You are more precious to me than anything else in the world. I don't know when or how, but in the short time that I've known you, you became irreplaceable to me. I think you need to realize that. You need to realize that you are someone important. Not to just me, but to most people that meet you. Do you think that Vincent trusted people so easily? Do you think that Pierce would come and willingly talk to me about stuff?

Dhairya, you caused these changes in us with who you are. You're amazing and kind. You take care of others well and it seems as if you're unreachable. I love you for who you are, and many others do as well. Dhairya, please understand that you are nothing of what your dad tells you. You are beautiful and strong. You don't deserve the bad things that your dad does to you. Being you is enough.

So, Dhairya, one more time, will you be my mate?"