Amnesia || lashton

April 18 Pt. 2

"My dirty little secret.

Who has to know?

When we live such fragile lives,

it's the best way we survive.

I go around a time or two,

just to spend more time with you." Dirty Little Secret - All American Rejects

A/N this is really cheesy/fluffy omf I am not good at fluffy sorry if its bad

"This, Ashton, is our first date part two."

Ashton's heart melted at the thought of having Luke back. His Luke back. And now he is back. He looked at the blonde boy across from him lovingly, and touched his hand.

"I don't remember you asking." Ashton teased.

Luke raised an eyebrow and cocked his head to the side, fiddling with his lip ring. "Oh?"

Ashton pressed his lips together in order not to smile. "Yes, I don't think you did."

"Well then, Ashton, will you go out with me?" He smiled before adding, "Keep in mind we're already at the location."

"Hmmm. What's in it for me?"

Luke pondered. "Some coffee and maybe candy later. Possibly a cuddle night, but that's only if you treat me right."

Ashton smiled before nodding. "Sounds worth it."

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"So," Luke popped a chip in his mouth before focusing on Ashton. They sat in Luke's room, a movie on, but long forgotten. They were sitting across from each other but there knees were touching, "Tell me about yourself."

"There isn't much to say. I like to play drums and I sing a little, but that's it really." Ashton shrugged and pulled the sleeves of his shirt down farther. Luke put that on a list of Ashton's nervous habits, next to avoiding eye contact.

"There is to, and you know it! What do you do for fun?" Luke asked.

"Play drums." Ashton repeated.

"Oh, uh, do you exercise?" Luke was surprised with himself for thinking of such a weird question.

"Yes." Ashton took a chip and nibbled on it.

"What do you do? I've never seen you run or anything."

"Drumming is exercise."

"But you sit when you play, unless you're one of those drummers that stand and just bang around?"

"No I sit, but you sweat a lot."

Luke was stumped. So he liked drumming and he sang a little. He doesn't do much.

An idea popped in Luke's head. "Do you write songs? If you play and sing, it kind of makes sense that you would write."

Ashton smiled as if Luke cracked the code to a safe. "Yea, I'm working on a song now actually."

"Oh can I read it?" Luke widened his eyes like a kid in a candy store.

"Not yet, hold on child. It's not ready!" Ashton said.

Luke pursed his lips before nodding. "Alright, but I want to be the first to see it, okay?"

Ashton put his right hand over his heart. "I swear it."

"Can we go to sleep? I'm really tired." Luke asked, yawning. Ashton nodded and moved to get up and go back to his room, but Luke's voice stopped him. He was already lying under the covers by the wall.

"Where are you going?"

"Back to my room?" Ashton said.

"I thought you would sleep in here. Ya know.. with me." Luke toyed with his lip ring.

Ashton's throat felt dry. "Uh, sure. I mean yeah. Let me just go do something and then I'll be back in, okay?" Ashton pointed to the door.

"Promise you're not just bailing?"

"I wouldn't do that." Ashton reassured him before going into his room. He lifted the corner of his mattress and found his journal after some rummaging. He sat down on the end of his bed and took out the pen on the side.

Dear Luke, April 18, 2014

Today has been one of the best days of my life. And it's because of you. It's always because of you.

I'm scared you're going to ask why you crashed. I'm scared you're going to go back to being weirded out with me and looking at me like I have 2 heads. Luke, I wouldn't be able to handle that.

I want to tell you about my scars. I want to tell you why I wear more than a dozen bracelets and why I cry all the time. But I'm really terrified. What if you hate me? When I told you my dirty little secret the first time, you were speechless. And then you told me you loved me and whispered the sweetest things in my ears. You made me promise to never do it again, but frankly, promises are a sham and should just be outlawed, because who keeps promises? I hope you react the same way.

If you do ask, I think I might show you the journal. Or maybe I'll just show it to you whenever. Would you understand? I hope so.

I'm going to go sleep now. With you. I haven't slept the best recently. Maybe it's just because I'm not with you.

I love you. Okay?

-Ashton

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NOT A TFIOS REFERENCE OMFG DONT

sorry for the shitty update I really hate this chapter wow

Sorry it's so mushy and weird

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-Katie♡