Lost

Chapter 12

~ For those who read my last chapter, I apologize because I made a lot of confusing errors with names but I've fixed them now if you need to reread it~

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I sat in my room Saturday morning thinking about my life. And I had noticed lately, I had been doing a lot of that. Oliver texted me. I texted him a silly picture and he responded kind of harshly. "What's that for". I felt lately as though, we had become almost too close. In the way of, we were in that stage when we were kind of mean to each other, and maybe it was just because I liked him, but when he teased me, it kind of hurt a little bit. But deep down I knew he would never mean for that to happen so I had to just ignore it, and play along, because After all, no one's perfect.

More and more I had been just thinking about Riley. I had always just assumed, he would go away after what all happened. But he was Riley and he really couldn't just go away. He had been there too long and carved a permanent spot just for him into my heart. And no matter how he felt towards me, I would always love Riley. And I missed talking to him. I was jealous of Jen and Estelle who talked to him all the time. I just wanted to run up to him sometimes and talk to him because not only did I miss him, my heart did. I missed his presence in my life. Telling him everything. Laughing with him. I missed being his best friend. And thinking about him made me annoyed enough to grab my keys and drive to his house.

I steered around the corner and pulled into Riley's driveway. I walked across the huge yard and up to the giant front doors knocking on the door he pulled open the door.

"Hey..." I said trailing off.

"What." He said rolling his eyes slightly and leaning against the door.

"I just thought.... We haven't...." And I didn't really know what to say.

"I said, what do you WANT Victoria" he said and his eyes became wide with frustration.

"Do u even care anymore..!" I said in a whiny, teary voice. "I miss you Riley! Why won't you talk to me! I'm sorry" I said whining and crying.

"Listen, I don't know what your problem is but I really can't talk to you right now. Estelle wouldn't want me too anyways." He said and he closed the door in my face. I folded my arms onto myself and began to sob uncontrollably. And I just stood there. In front of the door crying. And after 20 minutes I turned around and walked away from the door. And I didn't look back.

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I woke up from the alarm clock buzzing. All I had remembered from this weekend was that, Saturday had been pretty much the worst day of my life, and Sunday, I hadn't quite remembered at all.

I got up and got dressed. I looked in the mirror. Mediocre, but good enough. I walked out the door and got in the car and drove to school. When I walked in I caught a glimpse of Riley sitting with Jen and Estelle, but notice it was only a glimpse. After Saturday, I could never look him. It hurt me too much. I walked and Oliver put his arm around me smiling. I hadn't told him about Saturday and I had no intention of telling him. Oliver was sweet, but lately, I felt as though, I couldn't talk to him about anything seriously. Because he just seemed like everything was fun and games nowadays. So I couldn't tell him anything as serious as what had happened.

"I got to go early today, love you" he said and kissed me on the forehead. I looked at him and didn't say anything. Then Jen fell into step beside me.

"What's going on...." She said and I loved that she knew me so well. Just by looking at me she could tell how I was feeling.

"Riley..... He. So I went to his house to talk to him because things had gotten crazy. And he told me to go away and shut the door on me and I just had a total breakdown... And. Basically... Any friendship we may have had left. It's gone for sure now. Totally finished." I said and sighed at the end.

"I'm sorry" Jen said hugging me. And immediatly I knew that no matter how good of friends Riley and Jen may get to be, Jen would always stick with me. She hugged me and We kept talking.

"Does he ever talk about what happened with me... Does he talk even about me..." I said questioning her. "Tell me the honest truth on what he says" I finished.

"Tori I can't sa-" and I interrupted her.

"Tell me Jen. I need to know." I said mad because I knew what she was about to tell me was bad.

"He said.... He used to like you. But then you made other friends. And he feels like.... Your embarressed of him. And he said he hates you now and..... He said...." And she but her lip.

"What Jen!" I said my voice cracking because I was kind of hurt.

"He said.... He wishes he had never met you. Because your just an out of control nightmare.... And that Estelle has been way better to him then you could ever even try to be." She finished and I clenched my jaw in sadness.

"Oh." I said shocked that he could just wish away our past like that.

"I told you I didn't want to tell you..." She said and I could tell even she was hurt by having to say that to me.

"It's okay... "I said pushing my hair behind my ear. "I mean... Um." I said choking up a little. "Wow.. " I said and tiny tear slid down my cheek. "The sad thing is.... It doesn't surprise me anymore." And right then my world began spinning.

And then, the world went black.