Lost

Chapter 15

I sat in first period where the teacher was rambling on about some after school project. Then she said something that actually caught my attention. "Oh guys I have your posters for you campaign for after school!" She said I looked to see who she was talking to. My eyes landed upon, Estelle, Riley, Jen, Terra, and Leo all in a group. They were all smiling and I felt horrible. Because it reminded me of all our past groups. And of the times we would be in groups together. And I sat and endured the rest of the class dying to leave. To get away from everything that had been slowly killing me the last couple of months.

I looking sad naturally and then a tear slipped down my cheek. I had been crying a lot lately but right now I was really just frustrated that for the first time in my life, I wasn't part of that group. I texted Leo... "What's that after school thing going on with you guys...?" I said to him.

"Oh it's nothing...." He replied knowing I was probably upset.

"Don't lie to me. I want to know" I said back to him.

"Everyone wanted to be in a group together and do a campaign for a school trip after school" he said.

"Oh...." I said and had never felt so left out in my life.

I looked up from my phone hidden in my pocket where I was texting and saw Riley walking around talking to everyone. Including my friends. They all smiled and I watched as he looked at me and continued talking to all but me. I sat in silence. I sat in the corner when we had free time. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I hated this class. I didn't like anyone. Especially Riley.

I talked to Jen and then Riley came up and tapped her on the shoulder. My conversation was again taken from me and I walked away in retreat. Fight or flight, and I always flew.

It pained me to sit in a room not talking. I always had thought I was so happy and I had lots of friends but this class seemed to be filled more with enemies and it killed me inside to sit there untalking. Just seeing Riley sit there I wanted to just attack him. And tell him to just stop. And leave me alone. I wanted him to disappear.

Every single minute he caused me so much pain. And fear and sorrow and it was killing me slowly. I began to just sob and I turned and just sat in the corner where no one could see me. Which was how I liked it.

I couldn't take this school anymore. And then I decided it. I was moving to Statten Prep School. For a fresh start. But most of all, away from Riley.