Lost

Chapter 14

It was spring break and any connection between Riley and I had vanished entirely. We were no longer in any type of contact with each other besides seeing each other in public.

Nothing had really happened much lately. I scrolled through my Instagram feed and saw all the smiling pictures of friends together. The wierd part was that in all In all of them I knew at least one person and I kind of felt sad, because it had seemed in a way, like everyone had a best friend. And over spring break everyone was with that best friend. And I had always thought I had lots of friends, but then sitting down and looking at my contacts, I felt as though I had no one. I had not one really close friend that I would tell my secrets to. That I would have girly sleepovers with. And I realized mostly, I had kind of missed out on those my whole life.

I drove to the mall Saturday morning, the first day of spring break. I sat down at a table in the food court after a long shopping spree in which I bought all spring essentials. I noticed another girl walking around about my age. She had blonde ombré hair parted down the middle and pale skin. She was thin and wearing a maxi skirt with a loose tank top and when she turned I saw her face. Her eyes were dark and she wore brown eyeshadow, and had rosy red lips. She had coffee in her hand and she walked straight towards me and sat down and immediatly began talking as if we had known each other forever.

"Ugh. It's so annoying when all your friends are already busy and you have to go places alone...." She said without looking at me.

"Story of my life..." I said back to her.

"I know right. I mean, I have them all telling me 'we're at the beach' and 'I'm in Disney'..." She said and then looked at me.

"I know.... But at least you probably have a BEST FRIEND. Imagine having only friends.... Lots. But not one really close one" I said to her.

"Oh trust me, I don't have a best one either.... It sucks..." She said.

"I'm Erica" she said smiling at me.

"Victoria." I said. "But my friends call me Tori."

"Cool. Um, I was going to go to Urban.... Wanna come?" She said and I nodded following her.

"So what school are you at?" She said and I told her where I went. "Ohhh. I know some people there. Do you know Estelle?" She said and my eyes widened.

"Oh... I definately know her...." I said trailing off.

"Do you like her?" She said laughing.

"To be honest..... Not at all. She stole my best friend and basically tries to humiliate me every chance she gets..." I said letting my mind explode all my thoughts out loud.

"FINALLY SOMEONE AGREES WITH ME ABOUT THAT GIRL!!!" She yelled smiling.

We left urban and exchanged phone numbers. And then we left. And I didn't know if I would ever even see the little blonde ever again.

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It was the last day of spring break. Tomorrow I would be headed back to the all dreaded, School.

It was late at night and I was checking my phone. Ten unread texts. Two from Oliver. Three from Dana. One from Starla. Two from Isabel. And lastly, two from Erica. All were nothing important. Mostly questions. Then, was the matter of Erica. I texted her and I found out she goes to Statten Prep School. The preppiest and most elite school in the whole state. Yet somehow, I couldn't see Erica fitting in there at all. She was so nice, and friendly. I said goodnight to everyone and put my phone down sinking into the sheets. I dreamed that night of Oliver and I at the Junior party. Sweet dreams.

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I walked into school not making eye contact with anyone. I half rushed to my locker. I was kind of mad that I hadn't done anything over spring break while everyone had been out with friends and posting on twitter and Instagram. I pulled out my phone. I looked at my feed and strangely enough found a lot of pictures of Abigail. All were captioned with stuff like "got to love my Abigail" and "Oh Abigail.....Hahaha I love her so much" and I thought of how that used to be me. But times had changed a lot. And I found my real friends. Or at least, friends that were nice to me.

I walked to class and sat down. First block. Oliver was in class across from me. We hadn't actually seen each other for a while.

Class passed quickly and I left fastly again. I wasn't really feeling the whole school thing today. I avoided conversations with everyone. Or maybe they were actually just not talking to me.....

I looked around and noticed everyone was in pairs. Two was a lucky number. Because two was not too many but just enough. And knowing that I didn't have that made throw my head back into my locker and choke down tears. I was really frustrated for some reason. And sometimes I didn't even know why, but I would just cry. I could never explain why when someone asked me, making it look as though I had no obvious reason, but only I knew the reason and that's why I couldn't explain it.

I wondered who Riley was with. I saw him with Estelle.

Dana was with Eliza. Then was Jay and Lossing, Kiki and Lola, Starla and Terra, Isabel and Greyson, and Abigail and Hannah. Then I saw Jen quietly sitting on a bench reading a book. "Hey" I said sitting down beside her.

"Oh. Hi!" She said putting down her book.

"So.... How have thing-" and I was interrupted by Riley walking over and immediatly starting a conversation with Jen.

"Jen! Did you watch last night!" He said and I cringed as she answered him and completely disregarded our conversation.

"Thanks.... It's not like I was talking of anything.... Don't worry. I didn't want to talk to you anyways...." I said getting up and rolling my eyes. Sometimes, I did things that I regretted... I guess that was one of those moments... But I honestly couldn't help myself. I had a high defense system you could say I guess....

I went back to my locker and opened it.

"Stupid damn Riley..." I muttered to myself and then kicked the locker beneath mine.

"Something wrong" Oliver asked. I looked up startled to see him standing there.

"Everything is wrong.... This whole year is wrong" I said annoyed.

"Well... If it had been different we wouldn't have met each other!?" He said smiling.

"I want my old life back! I can't stand any of this!" I said way too loudly and people started to turn and look. "Great...." I said and I looked at the people looking at me.

"WHAT, do you guys want!?!?! Haven't you caused enough damage!" I yelled and slammed my locker walking away.

It was one of those days that felt as though my world was falling apart. So I just hoped tomorrow would be better. And I just assumed that by tomorrow, this whole day would look stupid of me. But I was wrong. Because in my life, things could always get worse... And that's usually what happened.