Lost

Chapter 13

I awoke laying in my bed in my bedroom. When I opened my eyes my mom was right by my side.

"Oh thank god!" She said. "Your awake! I was getting scared" and she stood up. Her blonde hair was in a pony tail and I realized our hair color was identical. As was our eye color. A beautiful, deep colored sapphire blue.

"Wha-what happened...?" I said sleepily sitting up in bed. I got dizzy and then immediatly layed back down again.

"Apparently you were talking to Jen at school and you just passed out. You guys were talking, then she looked away and next thing you know she said you were laying at her feet. Jen screamed and then Oliver had to carry you to the nurse where she called me and sent you home. Eliza and Dana are going to drive your car home later." She said and I felt really confused.

"I passed out...." I said and my mom nodded.

"Yep." She added after her nod.

And I knew I had passed out because of stress not because of anything else except the fact that me and Riley were fighting a lot and things were bad and I was super stressed out about the whole thing.

"Where's my phone?" I said and my mom picked my phone of my bedside table and handed it to me. I began looking through all the texts I had received and my mom left the room.

I had gotten thirty while I had been passed out. Most were just nosy texts from people I don't talk to wanting to know what happened. I opened them and ignored them. Then I got to the important people that I answered their texts. Dana, Eliza, Greyson, Isabel, Oliver, and Jen. I copied and pasted them all the same thing. "I passed out...."

From the people I had texted none of them had assumed it had involved Riley even though I knew deep down that was why I had passed out. After the confrontation, I had been in shock and it got to me. But it occurred to me that no one had seen that that was the cause because I hadn't told anyone about what happened with Riley.

And then there was the fact that surely Riley had found out what had happened to me. Yet he had not even texted me. And it had become apparent to me that clearly, me and Riley had become NO part if each other's life anymore. Therefore, all communication was to be avoided. And that even applied to me too.

Dana texted me back saying "Eliza and I are bringing your car now".

Ten minutes later I heard the door open and in thirty seconds they were in my room. They put the keys to my car on the bedside table and I thanked them.

"So what happened....?" Eliza said.

"I was just talking to Jen. That's the last thing I remember. Next thing I know I'm in my bed and have been passed out since eleven today." I said still confused by what had happened.

"Do you know why you could have passed out...?" Dana said and I knew by the suspicion in her eyes that her question meant nothing and she had already come up with a totally logical reason that was probably right for why I had passed out.

I didn't want anyone to know about the confrontation. The only person I had told was Jen, and I told her because I knew she wouldn't tell anyone else.

"I guess it was just stress probably. I mean, we've had a lot of tests in school lately..." I said and I knew immediatly Eliza had bought it and was already thinking of something different. However, I just knew Dana was too smart for an answer like that. But she pretended to accept the answer and move on.

"Well I got to go. I have a dinner date with Lossing tonight!!!" Eliza said smiling.

"Yayyyy! Have fun!" I said laughing.

"And if she's leaving that means I have to leave too I guess..." Dana said smiling.

"Hope you feel better!" Eliza said and I smiled.

"Thanks guys" I said and watched them walk out the door. I sat in my bed and checked my phone again. One text. From Oliver.

I had told him I had passed out. Not why.

"It was just stress" I texted him.

"From what?" He replied.

"Just school stuff probably" I said and I felt bad for lying.

"Tor, I'm not going to believe that a test made YOU pass out. What happened?" He said.

"It was just Riley... And we got in a huge fight..." I said to him.

"Seriously? What happened?" And I loved that he didn't just jump to conclusions and start name calling.

I ended up telling Oliver the entire story. He asked why I hadn't told him and I said because I hadn't wanted him to just tell me what I could have done differently.

Even after what happened with Riley, and the fact that anything we had left was now completely gone, I don't regret my decision. I don't regret that trip to his house. Because what that trip really showed me was the real Riley. The Riley that has been there all along. And maybe it was just Estelle that drew that part of him out but there no changing what I had seen. How Riley had acted was RILEY acting that way. Even though I felt as though I didn't know this knew person I did know them because it was Riley. Maybe it was just the fear in me saying "this isn't him". But all along, people had different sides. Or maybe that it's people change. And Riley had changed so much he no longer had his old side anymore. Because his old side wouldn't have let the new side say the things it said. And because of this new side I couldn't say I missed Riley. Maybe, it was better off this way. Maybe he was right. Maybe we should have never met. Maybe this is how our lives were meant to be lived. With there being no such thing as a friendship or even a knowing relationship between Riley and Me.

Maybe. We were done forever. And maybe, there's not even a maybe.

Because we were done forever. And forever, is a long time.